dazed dreamer

i am in misery.

2010-07-17T07:44:00.000-07:00

cus i just noticed how pathetic this blog is bahahahas.

headache.oww.

nth much happened.today had cip,collected loads of recyclable items.then stayed back in sch for anco stuff.then slacked.and nap.yesterday was pretty much awesome.after cca training.waited for van.then went with denise to slack and chat.then go buy snacks eat.then she went home.on the way,saw tom and yanhan.so then i stop to chat with them.chat until about more than half an hour.THEY SO DIRTY-MINDED!.wtf,but fun to chat with,teehees.

ok.nth much to say.ok.byee:D

put your hands in the air.

2010-07-09T05:53:00.000-07:00

reach for the stars and catch that special star.hopefully ur dream will come true.
fat hopes.
i think.

wow.feeling so emo these days.cus can feel loadsa failure and self-detesting moments.i dont know how my future got to here.its ok.not so bad.thats wad i think.felt like i let down alot of people,my friends.sometimes i cant help but admit it but i've lost me quite a fair bit.why?how should i know.well i do know.i know im ruining everything but i cant stop.cus i cant.

effyouh.
teehees.
nicole;)))

we're going round and round.

2010-07-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

going round in circles.and im dizzy.

argshh.so long no blog.i think.june holidays was awesome.i barely did my hw.now back to seriousness.gonna geek out. i think. spent past two days at home. its kinda awesome. finished first season of glee.hehhes. yeha:D

tomorrow gonna watch eclipse. ehhehehs.im team humans.or werewolves.cus i like tanned. weird huh.i wanna get tanned. i dun wanna be fair skin.hahhahaas.hmph.nth much to blog.

ohwell,byebyes
nicole;))

when the world dances.

2010-06-12T02:36:00.000-07:00

the pretty blue sky flying. the streets making music. the lights flashing non-stop. the shadows dancing crazily.

today is a really pathetic day.honestly i cant believe i spend the whole day just sitting around. tv,toilet,comp.amazing.one beautiful day gone again.not that its really beautiful. not everything,not everyone is beautiful.but i could try to pretend it is.and yes im freakin bored.i just wish to take a holiday somewhere.if i could get the money,i would take the first plane out of singapore even if it meant a 14-hour flight or so.ugh.

holidays are the best but im patheticly spending it.enough.gotta let loose and have the time of my life man.

outtahere,
nicole:))

i am iron man.

2010-06-10T05:05:00.000-07:00

um..no,thats wrong.im just watchin disaster movie,thats why.

now im speecheless.quite.

recovering from my tiny flu.

thinking of shopping.

thinkin of clouds,rainbows and flying chocolates.

wow,im crapping.again.

okay,my tumblr site: http://sleepbysunset.tumblr.com/
but this blog will still be here yeahs.

nicole;))

pretty flowers.

2010-06-08T06:08:00.000-07:00

why do they have to be so pretty?so perfect.they compliment the nature.they dance.they smile.if i could just be like a flower...

days and im still not forgetting.i know im starting to get real pathetic.but i cant help it sometimes really.i guess its natural of me.im stubborm.and yes,i've known that a long time.hmphhff.

CAMP ANCO2010.okk,lets see.TORTURE!ahahhahah.ok,but its not that bsuper bad to the extreme.but its 94.8% horrible.i dunno how i calculated that but yeahh...the rest is quite awesome.i think we were really a bad batch of cadets.poor thing.but we were quite alright.there were quite a few LOL moments.but also loadsa punishments and shoutings from officers/instructors.nice. but survived it.and i finally appreciated showering.the thought of not showering alot is just painful.but i did at least wash my hair two times.in 3 days.ARGH.but quite ok.it was badly-ok:D

today went yan house.i woke up and lazed around.showered and then go her house.rang her home,no answer.yan at her aunt house.AGH.then walked to her aunt hse.thn go bbss.i snuck in there by wearing her sch pe top.hahahhahas.couldnt find her 'cher.so went out."STRIPPED" off the top.but i was wearing me lil'miss tee kays.HAAHAaHa.went to wm.library.popular.thn subway!we mixed the crazy drink.and yeah yan,you got ur cookie!:Dback to bbss,found tcher,strip,yan's aunt house.took CAB to my house,got stuff,then CAB back.i mean thats crazy right?!thn went to get yan's hair cut.its awesome.so pretty!:Dthn back to her house.snapsnapsnap.thn back her aunt's house.watched her go crazy over audi:P.then home.
REALLY FUN DAY!thanks yan bffl!:Dbut wished drea was there too!:D

at the end of the day,you got to be happy.

crazyeee,
nicole;)))

i could really use a wish right now.

2010-05-30T07:32:00.000-07:00

i wish i could.yep,another wish gone.

days pass by, and i still cant get over you. i think of you everyday at least about five times.y'know,i regret not telling you everything i should have said.but you cant hear me now that you've left,right?i didnt tell you everything,my mistakes,my dreams,everything i've achieved,and i couldnt do that,i dunno why.i guess i was such a failure.but there's one thing i will always remember,i love you.i miss you.and i want to be there for you.i remember most of the moments shared with you,since young,since i could start remembering.and i thank you for caring so much for me.i really hope you're in a better place.i promise i will study hard and find someone in the future.i really miss you.i love you.rest well granny

life goes on.i dont know much anymore.got anco camp.urgh..but i'll take it,get it over with.and byebye to it.hmphff.im really clueless about how i feel nowadays.i dunno wat to feel.i think i've made too many mistakes.and i still am.and i will.i just cant stop.i dont know why.im really imperfect.i dunno why.suddenly,i just dont feel like being here anymore.i always dont wanna be here.i just want to be in a quiet place.near a beach.friendly peepos.a happy life.i dont know why.there are some things that i dont regret.yet they are painful.

hmphhff.
i dunno why.i jus keep thinking of you.maybe i really like you.but i have to move on.cus i know that you dont feel the way i do.i've accepted it.and so,life continues.

a million things,
nicole;///

no forever.

2010-05-27T02:57:00.000-07:00

we cant live forever.we cant love forever.we cant have forever.but we can have a veryverylongtime.

it was a shock.it was a crash.i had it all but i wasted everything.now theres so much regret left.at the same time,there were so many good memories im keeping.they tell me to let go;you're in a better place.but i'll not take those for answers.im stubborn.i cant let go.but im trying.right now,my mind is going through all those pretty moments we shared.you've been there for me since i was born,and i'll never forget that.i will never forget you.maybe i will try to accept the fact that you're gone already.i have always loved you,i love you,and i will always love you.i miss you.i really miss you.i cant stop wishing i could say many things to you if i was given jus a few more
mins with you.im sorry.i love you granny.

thanks for being there for me.the most.quite.hmph.

sleepwell,
nicole;)

its all starry-eyed.

2010-05-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

im seeing stars.and there was a sudden shooting star.it was,it was,it was........................a yellow bunny.

hehhehehehhe,thts lame.

hmph.crazy.my day gets crazier everyday.and i keep losing my faith.that there'll be a better change.im trying.honest.great,there's a freako doing jumping jacks.efff.wth.hmph.my exam results not bad.they okok.for mt,i got a pathetic 6 out of 20 fr paper 3 and 37 out of 70.at first got 35,and i was like,shit!i ask fr just pass but nvr mean it.but thn the marker stupid cant count. hehehehheh.hmph.yes,i like literature. too bad.

tmr,got stupid camp briefing.

shit.

night,
nicole;))))

high on life.

2010-05-19T07:01:00.000-07:00

im fine.really.if anything's wrong,its not me.im fine honestly.

i dont need advice.lectures.nags.i dont need the are-you-sure stares.i just need the goofy grins and heheheh-smiles to make me fine.

man,music is the best medication to everyday life.when im sad,happy,pissed or lonely,music is my cure.awesome.today was a horrible day.sjab,sorry,you really sucked today.tht 'cher made me real pissed. she was like blahblahblah and scolding.but,no point in getting stressed over ppl who aint worth it.she aint gonna gimme frown lines.and got pissed at senior.but not so bad.thn th test.and briefed on th camp.yea,its pretty horrible.but im thinkin,do it,and get over with it.thn byebye.so yea,i'll just suffer for awhile.argh.

so many problems.all i want is trust right now.i want belief.i dont need concern or care.i just need trust and belief.in me.but im losing hope.i just want to block out all the voices.

man.gawd.

irefusetospellgawdproperly,
nicole;( ;)

keeping it together.

2010-05-14T07:53:00.000-07:00

yes,so now im pissed at god.sorry religious peeps but im just not into religion whether you're catholic,christian buddhist,watevs.i can go to temples and church but i will never take a religion.at least now.yeahh im pissed at god cus he wont gimme a break.to help me.he's a freakin liar,he'll never help.

the weekend is coming.and im loving it.or dreading it actually.yea sure im glad exams have ended,but i dont want the week to end.i dont wanna lose her.ive been trying to keep things together but ive messed it up.ive got issues.issues are me.i gotta solve them.before i lose everything.i cant mess up.not now or ever.

fff,but it was fun.i'll stop.soon.

hmm,
nicole;(((

hmph.

2010-05-07T08:10:00.000-07:00

goddagoddagodda.\

this week,half-shite,half-wow.i thought it was gonna be a relax exam since i didnt worry during cl and el 1.then,next day,hist hard...thn today maths,aint workin.and stuck at the back sweating and so HOT.argh.so yea,shite exams.and studying at library really helps.yeah sure.:D

and i jus cant wait til friday.yeah.i need money for hols.im gonna go wild.hehhee.ok,not that much hehehhes.

happy.

:D,
nicole;))

things and days you dont look forward to.

2010-05-02T07:02:00.000-07:00

ohwow.cant wait.no i wanna wait.agh.

months gone and i still have no idea why im posting.anyways,freakin MYE in few days.and th only thing i have revised is fashion and boys from gf mag.shite.im dead.and on fri or sat,sheryl had to tell me im chosen for ANCO camp.and shite,again. shiteshite.CAMP,is horror.bigbigbig horror!why?!and she had to say b4 mye,which is super shite already. ok.

im done peeing my pants
good luck for MYE everyone.
and i've showcased my sanity.not.

duh,
nicole;)

im wrong.

2010-04-29T07:43:00.000-07:00

doing somethin wrong.saying something worng.feeling something wrong.being the wrong person.

im blaming the person who created the "follow ur heart" thing.fcuk. really moody.is it the pre MYE stress, PMS or stress from my heart.dunno.dont feel like talking.shite.wts.fcuk.ok im happy vulgar-ising my post.wow.now just feel like going to aus.anywhere out of sg to escape any freaking probs. im not emo.just frustrated and tired.still havnt sold sjab keychains.shite. great.
sometimes i wonder why im even typing here.its dead here.welll,im venting all my anger out.cant yah see.cant wait til MUMMY's BDAY.i will give her a big hug and kiss,thank her fr having me in 9 mths plus in her "tummy" and accepting my tardiness,tackiness, and stupidity.
love her loads.she is the one who means alot to me.
suddenly i thought of jason derulo.ohgawd. he's superhot. he dances mad and so awesome.
argh.waves,throw me away.

rest the panda eyes,
nicole;))

breathe in.

2010-04-25T01:54:00.000-07:00

dotdotdot.
science project is shite.loadsa hw.and mye less thn 2 weeks away.
im so tired.i dont even know why im posting.

urgh,bye.
nicole;)))

im not me if im not me.

2010-04-22T05:35:00.000-07:00

thats why im me.the weird,crazy,freaky,awkward,sarcastic,blur,wth is wrong with me,talking to myself me.how awesome.im so crazzy!ok,wait,wad did i jus say?

these days,super hot!i hate th freakin weather.its insane. lucky no caught by chers. hehehhehehe
tmr can go collect my passport. thn night goin uncle's house for dinner.hmmm,nothin much to say.jus like crazy emotions goin up and down.who i blame again?puberty.hahs!im evilll.
kay now watchin AI.i jus noticed how cool russell brand is.he is damn funny.and gorgeous.AGH.

hahhhaqahahs.still got projects to do.man.and midyears nearing.hmm. you know that feeling you have when you know you are laughing in a weird manner but you really are feeling amused?weird huhs.thats wad it feels like to watch american idol.:D

anyway goin,
nicole;))

my pissed-off day.

2010-04-19T03:59:00.000-07:00

yes it was.the most unluckiest in fact.i feel freakin pissed since th morning until now.no im not suffering from PMS.im suffering from pissed-off-ness.

it started since walking to school.was crossing from mrt to other side. then this caucasian guy on bike was cycling and shouting "woahh!" so loudly and rude manner.yea,it fcukin pissed me off.there were probably a few others crossing same time as me but he had to freakin scream at me.does he think im blind,of course i saw him coming.fcuk.and trust me,dying cus i banged into a bike isnt my ideal idea of suicide.if i see this dude again,i will smack his face and bike senseless. thats pissed-off moment number one.
rest of day,i was bugged by tht incident.in school,bugged by another matter.jus now i got bugged by th worst matter.and i've always denied it,avoided it and retreated from it.im a sucker at loveing people.yeah,i said it.laugh at me all you want,but thats a fact.im indecisive,i cant make up my mind.i jus end up making people wait,til they're sick of waiting.sick of me.great,i look like a bitchass now.i've carved a criminal of love outta myself.
now i shall end my pathetic-ness.

enough pity,
nicole;))

weather,another of my enemies.

2010-04-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

apart from hairdressers,the weather hates me.when i bring the umbrella,no rain.when i dont,it pours like hell.oh weather,you love me so much dont you?UGH

today was jus pure unluckiness.so i saw th dark and cloudy sky.and yet,my lazyness made me refuse th umbrella.halfway to school,started raining heavy.and pathetic me had to cover myself with the maths tb.then when i was about 5 mins plus from reachin sch,this middleage man drive in his car,stopped,roll down window and passed me an umbrella.i was like "thank you so much sir!"i was shocked,blanked out.but im so grateful that guy gave me th umbrella.at least there are compassionate and kind ppl existing in this world.thn continued to sch,on th way,dayana picked me up and drove to sch.THANKS DAYANA!hahahas.sch as usual.got freakin loadsa work.
tmr got prize giving day.have to wear freakin uniform and march and serve food.thats jus great.really.AGH.

anyway,need an early night.
night.
nicole;))

when it hits you hard.

2010-04-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

it hurts.real hurt.

this week.was shock.shocking.and all i felt was blaming god for everything.not bein religious here.jus felt it.i thought i could blive in him.but guess wat.i was proven wrong.no wonder my bro and i are anti-religious.anyway tok bout other things.
just got off the phone with yan ling bffl.its jus another of those moments where you feel so you talkin to ur bffl about crap.amazing.and its so fun talkin bout nothin but freakin crap. another HAPPY BDAY TO LOVELY VIVIAN AND JOELYN!:Dhahahas love yahs!hmm,im starting to really hate english.i dont know why.but gee,its killin me.
today had eng book review,i was definitely not prepared.and ms farhana still ask me go out.wow so pro.and i did shite.and i esp. stopped for a VERY long time before mentioning the lawyer part,it was crap.but the book i did about,MERCY by jodi picoult,its actually quite a beautiful book.its about th dude killing his wife because he loves her too much.honestly,how much and how far to wat extent would we go to for love.actually barely minimum.funny how love works.

anywaysim gonna sleep.
night peeps,
nicole;))

gravity pullin me back.

2010-04-03T02:35:00.000-07:00

" Baby its over, We both know, Lets go
Forward, I love you but in a different
Way and i'll love you forever"
- Pixie lott~ Turn it up

this week was jus hard.im so emotional.bout everything.this is where you blame puberty and mood swings.aha.but man,everything jus felt so shite and fcuk.but it should be one of the best weeks.man,ms farhana give us so much freakin work for eng.and i hate it.MS SITI, come back!! wed,adhha walk with me to sch,HAHAs.thurs,sports day.so cool dont need run cus public duty.funny to say this,ILOVESJAB!hhahhahs.amie get better!after that lunched and accompany joelyn around lot1 and wm.IHEARTYAHJOELYN.so pretty and amazing girl.:Dthn night went out with family to watch clash of the titans.it pretty much bored me apart from the 3D effect and sam worthington>hot! hahahs,thats his name right?!hahahs.yst visit granny.i love her.i dont care.she means a lot to me.how could they do that.selfish,me selfish too.why is she there without us. then went to takashimaya had dinner.bought my mag and the book, dear john.and nope havnt start on book review.shite.today went to pay respects.should have jus stopped breathing there.convenient huh.went to get bro's new phone.argh*jelous*
just now listened to ke$ha video,i just realised how drunk she really sounds.which means the better.i like people who sing like they're themselves; e.g. drunk.
and now im listenin to justin bieber.i saw his video clip.and wow he's pretty.too pretty.and thats.well,not so good.aww.

why i keep breaking ur heart.i dont know why.but this will be the last time i hurt you.and i'll never hurt you again.its the best thing for us.maybe not to you.but it will.i know girls who deserve you.not me.im shite and it'll do you know good.so just move on.please.

someonegimmeanoverdose,
nicole.

loving london.

2010-03-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

okayyye.short/long post cus gtg soon.

london was freakin awesoommmme.yes.i loved it.totally.and id go back there hopefully.but im still regretting not buying th VS body mist.shit.i have a few things to say.They are frekin TALL.im like shit,im so short and im staring up at many ppl.so embarassing for me.how exciting.and when you'd expected tht brit accent,you get someone speakin french or italian or godknowswad language.cute.and thy are kinda creepy.they looked,intimidating.i can confirm with you that i hate airplanes.officially,i hate the smell,especially th ones in th toilet,ihate th need fr a bag to puke.ARGH.btw,i got to take pics with some young male guards.HA!mission accomplished~mission to take pic with local lads.done.though they are not tht hot.but cool.and th weather was cold.got dry skin.eww.and shopping there is heaven.H&M was soo nice and cheap.i even fell in love with this pink burberry bag.yes,i stepped into burberry.seeing all their stuff was like fragile glasses.WOWWW.yea saw loadsa museums.well they are more cooler thn th ones in sg.yes,my bro kept torturing my hp by posing in front of my cam.cute bro.argh.

yes,london i love a lot.
th thing i love about going overseas(esp. australia).its tht everytime i go out of th country,all problems vanish.cus no one can tell me or invade my mind to remind me of something bad. it jus makes me feel better.ohhowihatefcukinsg.fcukkkk/hahahha/.

everytime i try to let you in,you gimme shite.i just hate tht feeling.why do you do this.no matter how much i love you,i know im gonna be broken again.

holiday,baby.

2010-03-12T09:21:00.000-08:00

um,who's baby?since when did i have one?oh well,baby will b my laptop.ohk,sorry baby lappy,miss me loads cus i wont be bloggin,checkin my fb status every 5 mins and i wont be goggling for some awesome display pic.melaka 2010 trip was AMAZING.reallyreally super great,in fact im starting to miss it.i loved the hotel,shopping and *shocking* museums.yup. this is a very short post cus i gotta sleep soon. yes,i detest the toilets there but hey,i still love it.well anyways,peeps,if there's anyone, DO NOT CONTACT ME FROM 13.3.10 to 21.3.10.IF YOU FIND NO ANSWER ,NMP.:D

hahahahas,gnitez.

umumum,whatshouldisay,
nicole;))

fancy-full.

2010-03-02T06:04:00.001-08:00

" I ain't gonna do what i don't want to; I'm gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond,rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, I show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face, I say...
Have a nice day, Have a nice day"
So,have a nice day peeps.

see why i love bon jovi?they are like the god of rock and old. lovelovelove them.anyways CT1 finish!YAY..and as everyone heard,sec2 going melaka!!hahhahahs.and when i come back from melaka,next day will be going to NODNOL.hhahahahsfigure it out.btw,im not bragging.i hate to brag.:Domfwg.it was a long week.but i aint gonna dwell on the exams.its done.aint able to change anything.hopefully holidays will give me a chance to re-vamp myself.shed the old me to a better me.ok,im gonna start talking about lame stuff,so dont read on if you know im gonna bore you.
as i was sayin,i just want people to see the real me.i dont feel the need to be like all other girls.the CUTE or really beautiful kinds.if i was meant to be one,id be one.i know im not one.and im not gonna push myself to be one.i dont wanna be a "manufactured" beauty.i want to be natural.hahahhas.a little bit to extravagant.well.
anyways,no calling/texting/chatting/contacting me from 10/3/10 to 21/3/10 kayes!

hahhahas not like anyone would.
bye
nicole;)))

love or no love.

2010-02-12T04:23:00.000-08:00

its been long.but im cool.after all,money,relatives and food.wat COULD go wrong?hmm,well, no purple packets, aunties who big mouth and laugh as bad as hyenas and fats.

hmmm,the time i've been waiting for.or not.man why i sound so emo.*ok positive-ness please..* argh.chinese new year.gatherings.it is awkward.cus everyone toktoktok,eateateat,drinkdrinkdrink.typical singaporeans.*sigh*ok,i'll stop whining.AGH.on the bright side,i'll get money >clothes>shopping!hehhehes.and not to mention,i went shopping for the past two or three weeks.eyeing all those clothes.WOW.i love my mummy(so lame),anyways,she bought me loadsa clothes.love her to bits.got uniqlo jeans,dresses,esprit tops,uniqlo tights hehehhes.so cute.agh.but still havent got alot off wishlist.i wantmore!:Dhehehhes.anyways,ct1 nearing in like two weeks plus.so have to prepare:Dso suay this yr valentine's day on cny.anyways,no valentine's so who cares.i'll take me hongbaos as my partner:D

wooooooo,
nicole;)))

the right one.

2010-02-04T05:29:00.000-08:00

when can i always be right.when im always quite wrong.no im not perfect.they come and go.they're not the right one.the right one is nothing.cus nothing's right.

and so its thurs.and freakin wth thurs.i dunno.could be the best or worst.either way,everyday sure has something to suck about. and i aint gonna talk about the bad stuff.i jus dont get why when i want to make my choice there is always somethin stickin out there.when i jus wanna take a single breath,i lose it.this is my freakin life.and sometimes i hate it.like hell.

anyways,im goin.

watthe,
nicole;))

what the freak.

2010-01-29T06:15:00.000-08:00

right.i should be sick.i am sick.partially.a bit.i dont know.

ok.this week.was freaky.very weird.i cant even describe much.i feel bad. i should be sleeping.but cant suddenly. so im awale. and type-type-type. got sick since tues,weds the worst, thurs almost the same.and today,at first okay, but then felt unwell again,so went home since got two day mc. hahahas.ok.

not much else to say.next week got class tests.i gotta work hard.

sneezes,
nicole;)))

shortest time.

2010-01-09T20:51:00.000-08:00

to post.hahas.

ok.got homework.later hopefully print pics,get mag and cut hair.aghs.i wonder why schools should have proper attire and hairstyle.we should express our image in our own freedom.rather than look like a nooberd.yup noob plus nerd.eck.anyways i have one last thing to say.TOM KAULITZ FROM TOKIO HOTEL IS SUPERCUTE.AND I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT THINK HE LOOKS GOOD.and i know is bro looks a little...um nothing.hahhas:Dok the end,TEEHEE:D

paranoia

2010-01-07T04:22:00.000-08:00

yup.its starting to build a wall around my world.its like germs.its making me die a slow and stupidly random death.im being pathetic right now.hmph.

school's back.thats what everyone will probably be blogging.the past year has definitely been a big highlight of my life.i love my friends and family.yes too much,til i annoy the crap outta them.hahs!i didnt know music is that addictive.aghs.*GASP*i want KSM and pixie lott cd!aahs!ok chill.right.about my stupid paranoia.nope im not fully paranoid.its jus that with frustration comes rage and thats paranoia.ok wth im tokin bout.i think im trying to much to be perfect at my freakin bad habits.my stupid procrastination and slow-ness.ok,gotta loosen up.jus a teeny bit.hahas.

ok endin.

youuuu,
nicole;)))

here's to the future.

2010-01-02T06:22:00.000-08:00

yep.hello 2010.

ok.a short sweet post before torture returns.ok cute torture.hahs.holiday was a really good thing.leaving behind my trails of good moments and the unforgettable bad memories.wish i went on a vacation this year.manz,cant even escape to malaysia.haiis.well anyways,at least i got loadsa stuffs.today bought colbie caillat cd,two movie vcds.oh shit.i need dvds.damn,doesnt matters.and got tops and shorts from cottonon.ahhh.thats good.still need more items from wishlist.but i really want a PIXIE LOTT CD ! agh,gee!anyways,2009 was a real good year.

work harder in 2010.self-motivation.

hmmph,
nicole;))

there's no nasty dreams.

2009-12-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

no such thing as nasty dreams.nope.no horrible dreams.no bad dreams.but there are such things as nightmares.

another new year.if its going to be good then yay for me!but if its gonna be bad,then i really need to get myself a lucky charm huhs.yesterday was a truly fun day manz.
first went to get marshmallows and chocs.went to yan house.she make me go wrong house.then went her aunt house.pig-ed out with pizzas(drea made it:D),chocs,marshmallows and chips.its called the anti-skinny diet.best for celebrations.then we went downstairs rollerblading.its my 2nd day of rollerblading so its ok to say i aint pro at it,yeahs.and another thing,slopes are rollerbladers worst enemy.i fell two times.yup.first time is i fell back after coming up from tht damn slope.second was near the stairs slope.damn.i looked stupid.and i gained a scratch and blublack.how pretty.then went to nearby skate park.should have been rollerblading at block but go skate park there take pics.loadsa.we took jump shots.so cute.and manz.those peeps who do the graffiti are so genius.so boomz.then go playground for awhile and went back to yan house.then go there charged phone,and more pics.hahhas.then went home.
rest for awhile go lot one with family.bought tickets to watch movie.then go cotton on.godd.50% sale.ahhs.iheartcottonon.had power shopping.end up bought like 3 tops.shorts was exx.then go watch,SHERLOCK HOLMES!:Dyeah.its kinda nice and funny.th dude was so funny hahahs:D

anyway good luck for a new year:D

back to school,
nicole;))

all the merrier.

2009-12-26T22:01:00.000-08:00

no wonder there are so many peeps to celebrate christmas.

last week was a good week.real good week.yeah!hahahs.thurs went to granny house for dinner.cousin can do magic tricks.pro manz.then friday was so nice.yeah.first went to stepuncle house.wait very long for lunch.lunch was about 3 plus i guess.veryvery full.then open pressies.aww,im so happy got new greyish sling bag,necklace,cd,shorts,nail buffer and taggy thingy.and my cousins go do a "concert" sorta thing.its so funny they dance hahas.so merry.then after that went.damn.im kinda jealous they getta go to greece.i want to go too!
then went home get other gifts then went to cousin's house for christmas celebration again.got food but not that hungry.not much there.then open gifts,got choc,BIG chipmunk plushie,eau de toilette thingy,music speakers and bedsheets stuff.yup.this year was a really great christmas.and im glad for that.and ty bro for owl city cd.yeahs.

anyways sch nearing soon liaos.must wake up.cant wait.

ohmyy,
nicole;))

sunrise.

2009-12-22T01:54:00.000-08:00

no sunlight.it just rained.

hmmm.its three days to christmas.im not christian.was.and still trying to be.hmph.just love it.just love the spirit of christmas.yeahs.and then sch re-opens.hmph.jeesh.oh yea.when does sch re-opens?im so paiseh.dont even know when school starts.i miss my friends yeah so thats th good part of going back to school.i wanna buy lotsa lotsa clothes.and that iPod nano.its th only nice one.but will have to save money yeahs.i cant wait til movie The Runaways come out.saw the trailer.hopefully not nc16 or watz.or i'll scream.hmph.next year there are so many things i gotta improve.yes,new year's resolution.hmph.firstly,cure my blurness.and stop the procrastination.if thats the word.stop my late-ness.and lastly.not be lazy.yes,move my lazy-ass.urgh.hmph.

well anyways,gtg.

awww,
nicole;))

whoa.

2009-12-12T06:41:00.000-08:00

hmm.i just thought of the word.its the next boomz word.cool yeahs.

hmm.operation snoozefest week.yup.lazy me.but at least i have finished reading book.yea.i've written a somewhat mediun list for santa to get me.i know santa doesnt exist so my parents have to take over his job.i need an ipod.notice:NEED.yup,too much but really need.i want loadsa loadsa clothes.and have half-done housechores so can get cash.and loadsa cds and cash.man.its so much.still need get some presents for others.planning to print out pics too.damn.school hols nearly over.and im not that into doing th english hw.next year mus put in loadsa damn effort.hmph.suddenly thought of woodlands hottie.hahs.anyways.hope bffls have great holiday.

goin now,
nicole;))

giving in.

2009-12-08T06:39:00.000-08:00

hmm.if im too stingy,then thats hard.gee.hey no wait.im not selfish yeas.hahahs

great the season of giving.wow.so wonderful.and i dont get to get out of this freakin country.i cant even step one foot out to malaysia.sad.but im thinking about colour.colour.......pink.shit.i swore i hate pink.and guess wat.im startin to like it again.shit.pink is too girly.but its cute.and i like staring at pink vehicles.mind my crappiness.anyways.hoping next week to do christmas gift shopping.school starting in more than 3 weeks time.so sad.time passes by too quickly.and btw,i didnt post for long cus of the switch to diff. internet connection.hmm.now my sweetie laptop is working.i wanna call it...marshmallow! hahs.nope,havnt had any booze at all,so its my brain which is psycho.im full of crap today.cant help it yeas.ha!good,marshmallow.you must obey me.marshmallow is a she yeas.hmm,sad yl went korea alreadys.planning watch new moon next week.and thanks drea for the poster.

enough of my crap,
nicole;)))

laughter.

2009-11-28T05:16:00.000-08:00

is the greatest thing ever.smiles included.but it aint a great thing if ur laughs are all just fake.like how fake smiles are just so un-natural.

life goes on.manz,today could have been usual but went to school cus open house for sjab.but end up do nothing much except wear the freakin outfit and sweat loads.helped move things here and there.so thats all i guess,i also did vomit in school after drinking one packet of milo.wow.milo can be mean.sad.after that went home bathed and did my maths.so good girl yeahs.jus admiring the rain.isnt it just great.but i pity the clouds that are crying.why emo.guess another day gone.boring but another day of my great life.im learning to appreciate life you know.

guess you didnt know,
nicole;)))

just wanna be happy.

2009-11-23T05:40:00.000-08:00

yes.happiness is my every breath.without happiness,i would faint.hmmm.too dramatic.but yes,my life isnt life if there is no happiness.

someone should teach me not to write so much crap in my posts hahas.i dont know.then again,its my freedom and i love and,am proud to say that my blog is CRAP-TASTIC and full of LAME-NESS.but honestly i think im writing nothing which makes sense ya know.i dunno wat the heck im talking about now...anyways,november is coming to an end soon.and cca ending soon.got open house this week and i think we have to do our foot drills,which im not keen on.how should i escape?hahhas.shhh.aah.i also havnt complete homework,sad.but at least i completed my chinese.BOOYEAHs.ok sorry for lameness.yea.but i cant wait for christmas shopping.not that i love spending money but c'mon,isnt it great jus tuh spread the loves?and all that prettypretty stuff.yes,nicole is being lame and childish.but thats the way its goin down.hahahs.ok,joking.

anyways,bye to bday month,soon,
nicole;)))

take a ride.

2009-11-16T07:02:00.000-08:00

in the real world,that is.learn to appreciate life and live it.dont emo.act emo but dont emo.dont try or get urself killed.love everyone,even strangers.go out more.meet new peeps.~that is the no. 1 most important part of today and forever.

man,last week had to be the best week.of this whole entire yr,so far!my cousin,B,came over then we show hi maround singapore.morning saturday went to somewhere near mrt there eat prata.go home changed and we went to the wave bridge and henderson park.kinda dreaded it but it was so cool.took pics.failed those 3 attempts.anyways home and change again then went with bro and B to republic poly.we were meant to see that drum festival concert or wat there but had to wait for B's fren vivian.nope not my vivian hahahs.but she was superr late and we kinda gatecrashed the concert,but not much,we saw the ending of the concert,but it was free.hahas.then V took us around the poly,she is a pretty crazy girl.then she actually want bring us go little india or city hall but its like about nearing 10,sure wont make it home in time.so instead go house downstairs chat lorhs.went to playground sit there.we talked for about more than half an hour i guess.bout boys and religion stuff.whoa man,it was so fun.sunday went lunch at coffeeshop,then go temple.then B bring us go city hall there have godivas choc ice blended.so ex lehs.lucky not i pay,TEEHEE!haahas.overall,it was a great weekend and i would do that over again.i want go out and meet more peeps hhahahas.make frens with strangers hahahs.yup,im brainwashed.no,not really...

dreading sjab.doesnt matter.few more weeks to endure.yeah.hmmm.AAH.

love my life,
nicole;)))

another day gone.

2009-11-11T05:36:00.000-08:00

and life continues on.

yesterday was a superr great day!went out with bffls drea and yan.met them at BB mrt and mrt-tehhd to outram park and change to harbourfront.went vivo and bought snacks from toysrus!hahahs.kid at heart.then had long john silver's fr lunch and we walked around,played in fake pool and go buy more sweets:Dthen went to bugis,took neoprints which cost $45 in total.not $44 drea and yan...hehehs,yup,much money gone.then go bugis street i bought another tee while drea bought tht jumpsuit which she looks freaking hot in and im jelous of.yan got earrings.home,whoa.i nearly got killed cus i was standing so close the edge of mrt trackss..AAH.but me and drea got seats cus yan got pushed into earlier train hahhas.home and later went out at night for sushi to celebrate.home my mummy gave tiny little pastry for me bday..AWW;D

special thank yous to my dearest bffls and frends who wished me happy bday yeahs;)

when did it change,
nicole;)

gonna be thirteen and so on.

2009-11-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

did i spell thirteen right?

yay.im so happy.its two more days peeps.two more freaking lovely days.in fact i dont mind waiting a tad longer.im so happy.but last night wasnt a goodgood night.in fact id rather be at home playing barbies then be at where i was last night.ok,thats a big lie.i dont play wif barbies.last night went to grandmother house to celebrate hers' and mines' bday.before went there had a big wardrobe malfunction.jus couldnt decide wat to where.then jus put on something.then and up make mummy angry cus she wasted time on me.wtf.so went grandmother house kinda got pissed off by almost everyone.those aunts so gossip-y.ff.haiis,but its ok lohs.should be grateful right?!yup,thanks fr all the red packets.or golden ones.watevs.today did nothing much.evening watched mtv emas cus i missed it.ummm.hmm.im jus looking forward to tuesday.i dont expect people to give me gifts.i jus want people to say happy bday to me.and thats the best gift i can ask for.SERIOUS.XD

the spark died off.there was no connection.

the current didnt survive,
nicole;)

so over it.

2009-11-04T06:33:00.001-08:00

yep.i guess so.i deserve better.not that you werent great.its just that i really got tired of waiting for something to happen.you.

hmm.very tired.listening to music and chatting with dear bffls!cca training so far okay luhs.today had geog field trip.so hott.go guilin view.done go for cca.sec2seniors got their results.congrats uhh!i scared next year sec2 uhhs.hmm.6 more days!hehe.yay,cant wait.ohmygee.gee.ohmgee.i think im addicted to using ohmygee,gee,ohmgee.everything gee.and nehs.crazy right.tomoro go with grandmother again in morning then probably go yan house.gotta get present and i then its friday.damn shits.haiis.nowadays sleep late then morning like very dead.i need go shopping.i mean i want.and oso want change blogskin.its getting boring.haiis.bored and tired..haiis.

happy chatting,
nicole;)))

no one.

2009-11-02T04:16:00.000-08:00

no one to talk with.chat with.laugh with.laugh at.annoy.man,its the first day of school holidays and i already bored.;X

today woke up around 6 plus,showered and went to aunt place.i accompany my grandmother go hospital for her treatment thing.must spend more time with grandmother.then ate a bit and went home.make me feel older but in a more responsible way luhs.hehehs.went back grandmother's house.stayed for awhile then went home.took a nap about 4 plus i guess.one afternoon gone.and now its night.aiyohs.really miss my 1e1 friends.next year 2e1,hope that its still the same,or better.hahas.but 1e1 will always 2e1.and so on.okay,makes no sense.i dont make sense at all.hmph,this week got sjab training.and hav to wear stupid half-u.blehs.okay,must cheeer up before i emo again.

waiting for...,
nicole;)

boo.

2009-10-31T05:33:00.000-07:00

it happened on the 31st october 2009.there was a girl,sitting at the table,and....she was attempting to be scary,but failed so.

eeyuh.its halloween night and instead of being out,im stuck home.i tried some fake blood but i know it looks like water colours on my face.ridiculous.no spirit of halloween peeps?urgh.oh shit.i dont thin ki can remove the stain.argh...got fake blood on my face.ahhaha.sian....schools over,starting to miss it.i think on monday might follow grandmother to hospital.then tues,go out with friends?weds and fri got cca.aiyohs.sat got celebrate my grandmother and me birthday.kind of like one week gone huhs.eeyuk.holiday got homework.wat the?hmmm,but its two months,faor enough yeahs.today i must be in happier mood huhhs?

with loves,
nicole;))

its all going crazy.

2009-10-30T05:13:00.000-07:00

seriously.

why does one bad thing have to folllow another?this week is definitely the worst week ever yeahs.wat sorta luck did i get?makes me wanna cry.cus u dont know how bad things are.im happy and single.which kinda has its good points but in whole,things are really bad.today last day of school for the year.yes im promoted to sec2e1 next year,yays.but waht will next year be like?i dunnope.today we gave ms neo and ms teo the appreciation thing,so sweet of us,right?!haha.anyways.yah,but so sad cus im gonna miss 2 months of fun,laughter,sillyness smarty ass-es.my 1e1 '09 is such a great class.my dear farzana,rena,wan nee,such lovely friends.and azreen yeahs!crazy cheery vivian!every of the girls rocks too.also got boys luhhs,cute teddy bear asri.SUPPERRR-funny talkative jacob.bro pet enen.dramatic and talented danial.aiyohss,i might even miss boon hian's annoying gayness,which is NOT a bad thing.

haiis.really miss everyone now.so much.and the dude.wont say.
to rena,please dont be unhappy,you're my bestie and watever happens, you will always be my bestie.
dot,
nicole;)))

bad week.

2009-10-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

worst week so far.too many bad things.and im a free-thinker but why did god punish us?;(im sad

scary things happened.sad things happened.its too hard to tell many peeple.school ending but its all going wrong.but today was a really bad day,maybe not for me but yup im sad.but i'll be alright?cheer ups.getting bored.tired.dunno.this is going to be a short post.cant wait for holidays.holidays confirm got training;dont want go but will,its ok.cant wait for my bday;D...ok im damn emo.or happy.bcus of someone,somethihng.

rena,please cheer up;

to..i might like you?

;D,
nicole;)))

what the what.

2009-10-22T05:41:00.000-07:00

im back to my emo days.thanks to yuhs.

this week,nope so far not the best week yeahs?everyday im happy but always got this sucky feeling.im just not as cheerful anymore.cus feel so...frick,doesnt matters.results this term quite disappointing liaos.mostly average marks.no super A1 s'.or not all A s'.english like shit the marks.haiis.now im troubled by so many things.father probably disappointed with my marks,yuh always think i not prepared,never put in enough effort.yup.thats my prob.but wat's ur prob.i know im lazy and i leave things to last min,always lagging.but i try to change that but im just not perfect yeahs.

ok.talk happier talk.my bday coming sooner,YEAH!cant wait.and when its my bday,i get to do WHATEVER I WANT.sorry if that sounds biatch-ey but yep thats how im gonna put it.im gonna be happy.and i cant let ANYTHING or ANYONE stress and upset me.hope cca training wont b on that day,cus if got,im so not going.duh.anyway,my blog is getting dead-er.will try tag more peeps if i not lazy.ehh wat that means...meanss...hmm.yup i totally lags,my brain cant process info fast enough.

not a smart girl,
nicole;)))

love it or hate it.

2009-10-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

and thats the way life is,so treasure it.when u go thru hard times,fight against it.when u go thru good times,celebrate it.lame,thats me.oh wait.wat am i talking about?

today life as usual.when for weekend activity.come home bathed.com-ed.as usual.then went for night run again.did i say i love night runs?i do.u might not think im sporty but i jus love night runs cus it makes me feel like im nowhere and i can vent out all my anger.nehnehneh;feeling hyper currently.cus thats me,not all th time.oh damn.here is my talking crap moments again.im back to my usual habit of talking crap.damn.cca resumed.got first aid test.now i only cant wait til my bday and hanging out with my friends.go back bugis.go shoppingshoppingshopping;DD

my results for exam not tht good luhs.my chinese passed by a few marks like that.baddehs.maths deprove.sci n hist okok.a little improve yeahh;

im going now,
nicole;))))

life in happy moments.

2009-10-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

what makes me happy?happiness.i guess.

today,i celebrated my day by going to bugis.with rena.woke up early bout 9 plus so can earn cash to buy my shopping stuff.superr excited.course.its shopping.then rushed around afternn meet rena.we took mrt to bugis.got these guy stand bside me in mrt.can uh see is armpit hair.EEYUKS;anyway.took to bugis.went bugis street.got lost for awhile but soon was easy.very shy to looking in shops.but then started looking at loadsa clothes.OMG!soo nice.loadsaloadsa shops and quite cheap except a few.at last bought animal print tee,skirt and denim vest.omg i love them soo much.then went bugis junction.we walked around.and rena had lunch.took neoprints.went imm with family.overall,had a suppppppppppperrr great time.

tomoro plan to clear some clothes for new ones.cant wait for bdayeee;D

i love bugis street-lame i know,
nicole;))))

so over it.

2009-10-13T05:07:00.000-07:00

what more do you want?to completely wreck my life.but hey,that will never happen.

yay.finally finish exams.yaaaaaaayy.sorry,not much mood.cus farzana mum dun allow her go bugis tomolo and stupid movie cant watch and cant transfer music.ferk.wtff.why so complicated.stupidstupid phone.at least managed watch final destination dvd about half of it.so nice.but watevs.stupidstupid.why am i such a bad tech person.ugh......ok.im whining.i hate maths olympiad.sorry luhs.its just this way.the thing superb boring and i cant get out of the room for 1 min even.wtf.should have been in good mood today but its completely the other way round.

hope tomorrow will be a better day.

whatever,
nicole;)))

crazy me.

2009-10-09T06:10:00.000-07:00

YEEEEEE!im so happy!kiss goodbye to exams.and crazy is my part middle name.

sort of.two more exams then can rest.i kinda gave up on geog and lit,so cross my fingers it turns out well.all exams kay-kay.but caused me late nights burning midnight oil.right.sure my fault.im the person who leaves things to the last min.god i hate my stupid habits.gotta change this habits.is it callled procrastination?i think should be.watevs.cant wait holiday.my bday.i mean my bday today.hehhehe.i want partypartyparty.sorry.my sugar levels are sky high;usually after exams so,im high!!holidaysholidaysholidays...still waiting.anyway short posting.gotta keep my plurk alive;DDor facebook;D

u dont know my bday;D,
nicole;))))

race against time.

2009-09-25T06:51:00.000-07:00

time which is running out before i self-destruct.time i wasted convincing myself i was not that good.i entered the "rehab" and came out a "recovered addict". now im much better after all the bullsh!t and crap you've put me through.time's up.

today was another stupid energy-less day again.lately,my nighttime sleeping schedule didnt go as planned.but its not like i have a schedule anyway.today maths test,its ok-ok,finished last min.eng,mind-mapping time.chinese,go thru compos.science,*yawns* **dont care much**,last topic before exam.ict, geometer and graphy thing.how could today be one of the most yawns day.by the way,i have fell in love with radio station,again.98.7 fm so rockss.when i was real down,i kept laughing cus of radio.now i know why my alarm clock so precious . anyway.lets see wat made me laugh today.i only can remember two. no.1,asri.dont get me wrong if i say this arhs.ASRI IS CUTE!ok,i said it.but no,i dont have a crush on him.he just reminds me of teddy bears.hahaha.lastly,jacob teasing me of touching my hair too much.it was like after recess,then jacob ask me why i keep touch my hair.then he start copy my actions.urgh.oh yah,sooo funny horhs.EE-YUH.then after ict,jacob and cheng en do the same.WTF.very funny.

now i know that i honestly do have a bad habit of touching my hair.but who cares.its my "natural talent"LOL.enough said.this sundaye goin to rat's party.its gonna be great.yanyan promise take silly pics with me.LOL.dunnope.hahah

letting loose on the weekend,
nicole;)))

between reality and fantasy.

2009-09-18T05:58:00.005-07:00

between them,i chose reality.fantasy is something you dream and desire for.reality is a fact that can never be burned.its not like this block road was hidden behind the bushes;we were just too plain stupid to notice it all.

today began like any other day.except it did rain today.so hurrahs for that.this few days slept late cus of tv.or maybe i just dint wanna sleep?perhaps.yep.dont know why but i just cant seem to focus on study and revision.why cant i just study well.i ALWAYS revise at last min.and nope,that aint good.so much for trying to be a guai kia.and bad news.new seating arrangement is horrid.why did miss neo put me in the front row.hey,im not that short.and i do pay attention in class(um,not really,considering i rest my head at least 5 times a day in sch).yup.still,no reason why.and you had to stick me with that boon hiang.hian.watevs.doesnt matter,nicole endures pain.she shall not worry about the little missy.i mean dude.lol.

today.typical day.got quite a lot hw.i dont get it.give us holidays yet give us homework.wats the point.dont give us freakin damn hw if you want us to have a good holiday.geesh.but today the highlight and up-lifting part of today was my after-school time with my sjab seniors.i totally dread sjab.but today was one of the damn freakin best ones.got two sec2 need pass their CPR test.at first i was the waht,demonstrative person.then mr pan make me do almost every action for CPR.ahem.im no pro,im blur and i lagging. then all of them laugh at my blurness.aiyohs.no psitive.but it was freakin funny when mr pan ask me to blow into dummy.i keep hesitate.then i think was hou an ask me i no blow balloon.then i was like"no i never blow balloon before".i mean i did.but failed.all the time.and i was damn embarassed.got like all the basketball guys see.then im so sotong.i dont even like to eat sotong.but it made me less emo,ya'know.we were laugh soo much.no regrets for today.at the end,i took the CPR test too.and i passed.got above 6o plus upon 85.and hey,i feel freaking genius.damn happy.one step to being promote lance.heheh;D

anway shall end here.freaking frustrated.oh great.wth i keep using "freaking".anyways,yep,shall rest for tomoro.

BOOO,
nicole;))

chasing the wind.

2009-09-11T01:15:00.000-07:00

no.not literally.

YAYY!i feel like LOL-ing forever.joking,joking.i did it!i change blogskin on my own.not much prob.havnt put in music though.and there's the weird name which goes with the end of my post.YAY.so happy.*claps happily* **embarassed at her lame-ness*

today,nothing much.woke up 11am.today is SEPTEMBER 11.dont you know huhhuhhuh.LOL.after breakfast go grandmother house,visit her.my fringe longer.i was thinking of changing my fringe but wait awhile first.hopefully go back school wont get caught during hair checks.still have chinese compo,xi zi,science paper and art to do.haiis.dont know if i lost chinese textbook.but no way im buying a new one if i did lose it.cus there's waht,only few chapters left?!

anyway,hopefully finish homework in time.half-no-not really looking forward to school re-open.

night in the afternoon,
nicole;))))))))

taking in all the happy moments.

2009-09-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

yup.im a happy person.we are happy people.i hope.

today.wasnt really one of the best days.no,not that i got in trouble.nope,not having heavy-emo day.nope.more like semi-sick.started few days ago,got throat problems then turn into flu/running nose.now a bit better.but see first.you know,its not that bad. hmm,not bad.anyway,woke up 8 like that,actually can make it in time for geog sup.but then i dont know why,today take so long to get out of house.when finally left house,mummy came home then she was like"why you havent leave house??!" sorta thing.took 945 bus to sch.took geog sup.i sotong,go check 2T1 class,no have.went downstairs then rmb its 1T2 class.second level.URGH.

after geog sup,home and showered then went to bukit batok int.wait then found yl and her friend.we went there took neoprints and play little games.then went to mac for lunch.yl and her friend so pretty.then go with yl cut her new hair.congrats,yan.you just became a BANGSTER.ok i didnt mean that she is a gangster with bangs,but yeah,yl,you are a bangster;DDDDthen go her house,got snacks,use comp.then i go home.walked from bus int to home,alone.should have enjoyed the nearly-night sky instead of sweating.urghs.next time.

live.love.laugh,
nicole;)))

jealousy kills.

2009-09-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

what am i jelous of?almost everything.but i throw all those sh!t away.cus jealousy cures nothing.

these week like dont know what.just hate everything these days.everyday i want more,everyday i want less.and tonight just felt it,i want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!dont know why.i dont get what is it with perfection.i hate perfection.but there are just that many times when i try super hard to be perfect.i feel wasted.oh wait.thats not the right term.yup,but i feel wasted.school holidays start.and i know what its going to be like, HOMEWORK,REVISE,SCHOOL,COMP,TV or FRIENDS.and thats sad.bcus i know revise is what im forced to do.suddenly that feeling comes again. I WANT TO GO BACK TO AUSTRALIA,I WANT TO BE ALONE.I WANT TO BE ANYWHERE BUT HERE,FOR NOW.yup.just cant take it.im cold.why is it when i want rain,it gives me sunshine,and when i want sunshine,it gives me rain.shoot.im emo-ing.but who cares.no one.even seein my bffls might not cure.sorry drea and yan.

want to dance,ahaha.thats waht happens when nicole feels cold.she wants to do the most outrageous and stupidest things,but to no avail due to parents obstruction.i could really use a horror movie right now.like THE FINAL DESTINATION.even though i heard it sucks,its better than nothing.but the stupid cinemas had to put it M18.where can like that.wahtever.watched PROM NIGHT already.dont want watch it again.TWILIGHT...not creepy enough.shoot.no horror movies watch.and thats cus my 'rents dont like me watching violent stuff.ugh.ughh.UGH.

ohkaye.nicole's done emo-ing.

when good girls go bad,
nicole;)))

you make me crazier.

2009-09-01T06:05:00.002-07:00

hmph.toiletpaper makes me crazier.everyone around me makes me crazier.and soap makes me crazier.alcohol will be next--in years to come;DD

Mon-daee

i woke up a bit more earlier.for special occassions wake up early waht.then i went to school.without any bag.weird.went there,go class.then in class chat here,there.went to parade square.then hall do romanian dance for ACES workout.recess,CFT.no party but got take pics.then T'CHERS DAY CONCERT!!!!!!!very nice.dominic sing sooo good;Dothers also sing nice.then 'chers cut cake.after concert,rush home.

home.took backpack and t'chers gifts.i went to bt batok int.met with yl bffl.we took 941 and go bubble tea shop.buy drinks,went playground.i felt cheered up,dunno why.its bcus,bcus,bcus....ILOVEMYPEPS!cant help it waht.then went outside sch gate 4.its damn crowded.then bunch of boys tease me.ugh.then wait for waht,half hour or more than can go in.sasw so many ex peps ppl.all change.some,no.joel got grow tall.zoe jiejie bcum soo chiobu.qinyu also pretty.rachel t. also pretty;Deveryone prettypretty.even the boys;PPP

go inside school go see mr choy and mr adib.then chatchat.go mrs lynette tan classroom give her gifts.sad cannot chat cus she teaching,doesnt matter;DDgo back chat with mr choy.wanted give mrs han gifts but she no0 there.doesnt matter.go canteen.caleb keep say i cute hair.WOW."thank you!!!!" oh haha.then go back playground.reminded of old times.i felt sad.PEPS is like my second home.and the playground was our hangout.so touching.then took 941 back.waiting,saw hani.did small talk then when he going,he said i look like RETARD. WTH.watever.

To-daee
woke up,got a call.thanks for waking me up.then after breakfast,i begged yl to let me go her house cus no one else house go.guilty cus she busy wit hw.heheh.then i bathed and changed.wore new blue shorts and white tee.put on blue cardigan cus raining and its cold.COLD.took MRT and bus to yl aunt house.got off.it was raining and i no umbrella.then got this kind auntie who ask whether want share umbrella with me and accompanied across road to under void deck.i think she was an old bus auntie from pri sch.i was so gan dong.OMG,THANK YOU AUNTIE;Dthen go yl aunt hse.used com while yl half do hw.then i gtg so we go downstairs.bought ice-cream and biscuits.go bus int.walked home.

two days of fun.yay.tomoro,sjab.urgh.*trying to smile**coughs*
"oh god please bless me.too young.ok,im being dramatic.sorry.""OH PLEASE BLESS ME!"
yup.said it.please dont make tomoro horridible;D

ending my story.ILOVEPEPS,
nicole;)))

say hello.

2009-08-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

quicky post.

waiting for chance to change blogskin cus now its getting boring.but im damn lazy.waiting for drea's magic hands to help he.ahahah.

today woke up.tired.soso tired.slept late last night.then morning go class.my bag felt so heavy.dunno why.then after that CME,miss siti and us discuss 'chers and laughlaugh our moments.let science and chinese pass,cus it was bored-ing.recess i go canteen,cant tahan,need ice milo.cheered up,go find farzana they all.

DnT,we did the new acrylic light thing.watever u call it.so then i took blue one.danial wanted blue.then i felt bad.then he angry at me.sorry luhs danial.i cant find ur CHIIOBUU website.but i will say DANIAL IS THE MOST CHIOBU!happy??

art.i very tired.blur.after art.dont want to talk about it.urgh...danial....forget it.then we go back class.history and so on.go home,mummy sick.washed dishes for her.so guai.one act of kindness;D

tomoro see i go where.cant wait for monday go back to beloved PEPS<3;DDDD

blinded by the lights,
nicole;))))

just keep staring.

2009-08-22T06:25:00.000-07:00

stare.eyes bloodshot.head spinning.and.you're out!night.

okaye im totally joking.i should be.today woke up.i was tired.but anyways,dragged myself out of the house to accompany mother walk downstairs.back, ate and very good girl do my homework.finish,lunch-ed and quickly bathed.i was runnning late.bet drea would kill me.i got myself to drea's house then i wait for her.looked at blogskins but no time change.so see next time do.yes drea,your hamster is cute;DDD

we rushed take MRT go commonwealth station and went to her church.watched movie fireproof. its so touching.to do with religious stuff but very original?i like it.its nice movie.after that,went to MRT.i text my mum ask whether can go bugis with her buti accidentally send to drea.LOL.opps,sorry,blame me lameness.then my mum say cant go bugis beecus will super late,so end up go jurong point.we went there but not much money on us.so we spent time like walking around the jurong point.bought biscuit and bread.and then continued walking in circles.how boring;)))

after that,gtgh.then go mrt but out of money.TAPTAP.------*DRTnomoney*okaye just joking.got card to go home.but that stupid 10cent so stubborn;Dhome.and my feet got cut by glass.SWEET.

hey drea,can help me with blogskin.cus im super bad at it,need pro help;)))

slowly knocking myself out,
nicole;)))

let the breeze sweep you away.

2009-08-21T05:46:00.000-07:00

without sweeping away my fringe;D.

woke up today.a bit like a hangover.minus alcohol and everything.slept late last night.still kept myself awake.i wore a size 17shirt to school.it was big.im size16.couldnt find my shirt.school passed by quite quickly.ICT mr shah no come.yay.had 2 free periods.2 free last periods.then the girl 'cher no care bout us.we use phone also can.

after school walked to west mall.i meet drea at macdonalds for quick lunch.we shared small fries and ice milo.then said goodbye;CCC.

i met joelyn,hui xin,jaslin and freda at cinema.bought tickets.then saw kevin,cheng en and wei yao.me and freda were like the only one who wore school uniform.we watched the proposal.funny.nude scenes-eck!but so funnnyyyyyyyy.LOL;Dthen after movie.i was so cold and full bladder.i like went to 4th level cus need weewee.then we walked around.go library.read nursery books;)then joelyn keep taking pics;P

then went home.nearly take 945.but then i felt like must walk home.dunno why.felt so relax.on way home,saw liyi and sjab friends;DDDfinaally reach home,tv and so on.another of nicole's boring life.

so much homework.
anyway,night;DDD

slowly sleeping,
nicole;))

the things that make me go crazy.

2009-08-14T04:19:00.000-07:00

huh,i dont know.

i dont know why im weird.but i feel entitled to say anything i like.sometimes.and when it gets awkward,i shall just say something to cover it up.ohkaye,yes,i embarass myself every now and then.not surprising.at all.

yay me,ending of the week.but f.got homework.a lot.sort of.tomorrow probably go out for lunch.but might stop by jp to get joelyn sweets.i think.;(poor me.hahaha.its ok.today.nearly late for school.but thanks to my lateness and sleeping in plus my poor toe.ouch.and then today miss siti no come.then do work.then school passed by sort of quick.haiis.i keep forgetting some things.doesnt matter.ohyah.weds cca ohkaye.thats cus we play water bomb for recre.if thats wat u call it.

ohkaye.im going;D

sweet nightmares,
nicole;)

when the tough gets going.

2009-08-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

ohh how i dread wednesdays.

ohh man,not tomorrow.never.ever.

lets talk happy.RECAP;D

sundayyye-
went to aunt's house at night for national day party.aunt and cousin from australia flew to singapore.yummy food(not really...).plus my cousin showed me magic tricks.which i'll never bother learning cus im...lazy?after that,went home used comp.i took like loadsa facebook quizzes.example:"which poo are you?""which sexy cartoon female are you".something like that.and i was on phone discussing with drea about monday's plans.her sis laughed at my jokes.okayee not all.but YAY!im FUNNY!not so horny.

yesterdayye-mondayye-
woke up morning.sad drea had to do homework first so im not gonna change blogskin yet.not that i cant change,jus that i sucked at it.then went to west mall.wait wait wait.had to endure the stupid osim promotion where i like few metres away from the screen where they kept repeating that meowmeow ad.WTF.finally drea came with her NEWHOTPHONE!so jelous.went to jurong point.first go cinema.she watching UP with her friends but they got tickets earlier.went there,seats out.so doesnt matter.then we went to arcade and take neoprints.then during taking pics,suddenly got malay boy open curtain,then he like:"sorrysorry"LOL!so embarassed.then go meet drea's frends,amanda,pearlie,nicholas and renwei.then along came liwen.so there.went to pizza hut.they all so funny.then i go cus their movie starting.i escaped to west mall first,got stationery.then i went into library,got book and read it all there.wow.

and today.tomorrow.got.school.today had CIP.a little nail-scratching for the palettes.tomorrow.oh how i hate wednesdays.yup,i fear and loathe wednesdays.sjab,its your fault.lol.not intentionally.tomorrow,again,morning,i have to lug the stupid bag of clothes and my shoes.ohh man.if tomorrow have morning assembly,please,someone,make me blackout.on second thoughts,not really.will stop here.

dont faint.not tomorrow.oh maybe.why not?,
nicole;))

nothing is going to bring me down.

2009-08-08T05:39:00.000-07:00

nope.not even a teacher as good as mdm tiong.not even a failed paper or just-passed paper.or nagging parents.

today i woke up at about 10am.last night spent like 1and a 1/2 hours listening to mp3.so i slept at 1am.tired.afternoon go takashimaya.went to pick up stuff and then go to kinokuniya.god,wat is it with all these confusing names.i bought magazine and book.then had dinner.oh yah at bookstore,the magazine section got see ilike middle-aged or something man.then he look at magazine like very pervertic way or dunno how say.a bit like stare stare.somemore, the magazine got like loadsa women pics.blergh.

take bus home.slept a bit on bus.then take taxi.short trip.went home.talk on phone and then showered.and now here.

we're all too sweet,
nicole;)

home is closer to the heart.

2009-08-07T06:20:00.000-07:00

sort of.maybe.i dunno.

today i woke up at 5.45am.i think thats the earliest i woken up.hurrah for you nicole.thne i squeezed my ass into gray skinnies and red tee.i got out of house and thought.oh shit.i think im the only one without a bag...hmmm...kept walking.i waited for dayana to walk into school with her.i think she came in like a few mins before gate close.her elmo tee soo cute;Dconcert okaye-nice.nice to see school so united when singing national day songs,my primary school didnt care.

after concert over,i had to walk back home take a shower.man,if wearing tight skinnies arent bad enough,not recovering from standing broad jump re-test is worse. anyway went home showered and packed bag.i reached west mall late and dint know yl came out early until she called.i went to get top-up card first.then i got angry cus i thought the uncle cheat my money by giving wrong card.lucky i never ask for refund.turns out is correctl.yah i blur sotong no check luhhs.then wait for yl change.today met lots of people.i saw elle,shauna,simin,farzana,rena,danial,azreen,zahir,jaslin,joelyn,hui xin,freda,jing hui,cheng en,wei yao,raiyan(from peps).

then funny.me and yl go stalk raiyan in library.then he go run off.then yl go see her mum.raiyan promise treat us movie tickets to harry potter.then when yl mum allow, the raiyan dunno go run off to where.turn out he go inside cinema lerhs.but got check there,he not there.doesnt matter lohs.me and yl go arcade take neoprints.then went to mac eat.then yl want go hunt raiyan again so go back in west mall.thats when saw my 1e1 friends.and something so hilarious.

then go yl house.she go play audition.while i dated the toilet bowl.thne went back to com.i cut neoprints.then we discussed go prank call 5 people.not really prank call.sort of.first call her audi fren.then he like"hello?hello?hello?"many times.HHAHAHAHA.then call cheng en.so stupid.i go say i his bro girlfriend,i breaking up.how stupid.and i kept saying "YOHYOHYOH".too much laughther.called gavin but he was sleeping.so no prank call.then call gokul.i was saying."HI YOU'RE SO HOT.IM SO HOT"laughs.only yan ling say is her.HOT.lastly called the raiyan.again.walao talk on the phone so stupid.when i talk i suddenly noticed how much hornier i have becomed.OH NO!too horny;anyway.finishing horny talk done.yl got tution so i go home.

monday holiday.yipee.wooh.im lame.

making me want too much,
nicole;)

share the happiness.

2009-08-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

yes.im going to smile.gone are my emo days.i think.im not emo.i just wander off in my stupid head too much.waay too much.i feel like im talking to no one.hmph.funny.haha.how fake.

anyway.last week had a good time,went to jurong point and on saturdae' went to vivocity.i bought magazine,earrings,sunglasses and necklaces:)all so pretty.hahah,yay!that made me happy.and on sunday.someone gave me gifts from overseas.yay;Dgot new body mist and shirts.but sadly no bag.i want a small sling bag.those which stuffs my hp and wallet just nice;Dand i waiting to get more shorts.please.

my goodies;))

these friday ms neo wants us to wear red/white tee with jeans.ohhh why?i dont want to wear my skinnies.later i hurt my ass.poor me.pity me someone!okayee.i'll shut up.nott.hahahah.still...

and i cant find a red tee.even though i have it.dunno whether can wear.but its nice.i think.kinda. and this week want go peps see teachers.but maybe not.i know peps teachers getting sick of seeing our faces.too bad.i love my primary school teachers.heheheh.

congrats on your interview.

you'll never get rid of me;))cus im pretty annoying

nicole;))

heels over head.

2009-07-25T02:04:00.000-07:00

never got the meaning.did not care.or do i know?ohh.sorry for my dumbness.its natural.not inherited.i think.its so sunny today.very sunny.super sunny.want to change blogskin but.im lazy.another of my natural things.thinking of what to say.yea maybe i could say that this week has been one of the worst.long story.short words.only one thing to say...i want a rainbow!!

ohkay.accept my lameness.

plus HAPPY-ONE-DAY-AFTER-YOUR-BIRTHDAY JASLIN SISTAHHH;D
the best class chairperson and sistahh.um all equal.still, i love you jaslin sistahh.sorry no bring ur gift on exact day.and bought the same gift as joelyn.;(((.

doesnt matter.its the thoughts tht count.today doing nothing much.later have to go grandmother's house.but dont want to.dont want to see her. Anyway.done most homework.except eng book review and chinese.plus i havent study for class test sad.

counting the days,
nicole;)

the fun in life.

2009-07-17T22:56:00.000-07:00

okay.not so much fun.more like"fan". i dunno exact meaning but i guess it means stressing??back at school got homework.then next week got class test.and i helping my p5 friend with work.and tution.so shitty.but doesnt matter i be happier by looking at pretty colours. COLOURS.awwww.......im so tired.okay, doesnt matter.

lets see.dunno wat happen this week.nothing much interesting.prank call perhaps.but thts all.yesterday had all subjects.oh ps, next week cca start again.noooooooooooo.i dont want go for sjab.i mean no offence cus its jus,well, tough-boring.something like that.yup.sort of.hmph.

opening my eyes bigger,
nicole;)

gone are the good times.

2009-07-10T22:08:00.000-07:00

im tired.okay n o t really.slept late last night.cus i was being superb good girl finishing homework.sad lorhs.holidays all over.in a snap of a finger.and hmm...i dunno.i think im coping well with homework.i think.i just wonder what it will be like to be alone with no one in this world.how lonely.lol.

on youth day went to yl's house cus she cant go out.blerhs.did nothing but play with her barbies.okay, childish but for fun right??hahah.and i didnt get to play badminton cus so windy and raining.i hate the wind.i love it only when it does not blow my fringe.oh yes.i got a confession.IM ADDICTED TO TOUCHING MY FRINGE.oh yes that is bad.why the hell do i keep touching my fringe?i mean its not like i want to but i just keep doing.and i cant help it.awh man.

not realising,
nicole;)

the last days.

2009-06-24T20:38:00.000-07:00

shit.going back to school soon.bleh.and i still havent finish art,dnt,lit and chinese.oh and i havent finish filing.dead.hmph.but at least got nice outings luhs.during holidays went for 1E1 class outing,hang out with bffls and so on.SHOP!i got my new school bag alrs.yea!later have tution.im bored.i dont want to go back to school.i want to take an airplane to some country,somewhere,anywhere.but those are called fat hopes.like real that will happen.now.

okay.gotta go.b-bye;D

dont get moody.

2009-06-05T21:59:00.000-07:00

yep.i hope i wont.

"i feel the dusty air,i hear the silent wind and i see the abandoned town."

nobody's home.and i m all alone.quite.im just tired.this week was like a fireworks blasting into my room without any warning.im waiting for my pimples to pop away.yea,i admit i got pimples but who doesnt,unless you take good care of ya skin.but anyway,lets not talk about pimples.

wanna thank my dear drea for doing my bloggy thing.anyway this week i was hyper.i went out with yl aftr CCM.we went tuh IMM.we junk-ed on caramel corn n potato snack from daiso and she got moi a keychain.n on thursday i met drea at mac and i had lunch.then we took neoprints.but during our second one,th machine out of paper.so had ice-cream thn we re-took.those sneaky peeps keep checkin our machine.lol.

anyway some pics;D

so saaad,drea more prettier than me.i look better when my fringe is up,excluding the nasty pimples.anyway,like our ice-cream??somewhere up there................^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

teeheh.th ice-cream tables so cute.but i bad-ehh,i go use our knives put near th cow toot pic on th th table.lol.i dont think bad.hahah.

newae,waiting for class outing.cheryl,not sure if can make it for our outing.but hope can.

seeing your face again makees me think back.dont do that.

nicole;)

the real life.

2009-06-02T06:15:00.000-07:00

"yep.now i get how life really works."

just got back frm camp yesteeday.all sore n everything.slept at 12am fr those two nights.and woke up 6+.and my bravebrave ummie battled pain of her leg,and she should feel like wonderwoman,um,minus th costume and long hair.apart from th harsh PT and shoutings from our sirs and ma'ams,every of th camp was F U N!and i love my camp instructors jaslin(th prettiest;LOL) and xue li.plus my twin,christa(from westwood;ps not hgss).and cheers yea!

one of HERCULES(my team) signature cheer is:
"what you like to eat?"
"what you like to eat?"
"what you like to eat?"

"roti john!"
"roti john!"
"roti john!"

"because we are from..."
"ST. JOHN'S"

LOLz.plus congrats to HERCULES for getting best group.plus my dear rena congrats on getting merit or distinction..yea??WOO!ST JOHN ROCKKSS;DD

nicole;)

im gone im going

2009-05-28T05:40:00.000-07:00

yep.okayye.not going now but on sat.jus finished th last mint frm my box of eclipse.YEAAA.anyway.tis week going to st john camp at scss.shit.like real shit.cus im slow,and a blur sotong.so,chances of me getting scolded by a sir/mdm/my senior is totally high.if i can get thru tis three days camp,i'll thank god fr a day.a whoooooooole day.cus bam,tis veliveli hard.and if i not wrong my senior staff say will get punishment if do anything wrong fr camp.AAAAAAAAAAH.if he minus-ed tht,i think i'd cope better.worst still,we'll b graded fr this.i mean we'd be marked,good or bad etc.im total dead meat.so tomoro when see sec2 senior hav to train superb hard.cus im so scared.yep i admit.i'll miss my room.my scrump.my pooh bowster.my piglet beanie cushion.my wall of famous people's posters.my clothes.my shopaholic-trips.my purple items.my bed.AAAAAAAAAAHHH.

okayeee.gottah,chill.serious chill.today go ACM.guess wat?been there,done that.went there fr p6 trip.anyway funny.it was a good trip.danial n asri funny sia.thn whn bus trip bac,me,farzana n rena sit together.n annoyed cheng en n wei yao.HAAAHHHA.thn danial sit on cheng en.th rest is long story.

sooooo bored.anyway.hav tuh b prepared,
nicole;)

i detest fakers,so be the true you

2009-05-26T04:30:00.000-07:00

okayee.im not commanding anyone to you.but honestly you know better to be th real you.fakes dont get to anywhere.if others think u r a fake but u r honestly real then thats ok.but man,i hate fakers,biatches,copycats and downright mean people.despite my vulgar vocab,at least im putting it in th least bad way.well today had lessons like usual.bored.and today was sooooooooo H O T!i was sweating almost all th time.except fr a few moments of breeze.today danial go hospital cus dunno wat injury or watev.to danial,dude,sorry fr scolding u th f word whn ya pulled me hair.get better dude.

anyways,today maths day was th worst event of my day.oh n yes im 152cm.dont ask my weight thou.i want to be like 165cm or above before i stop growing.so i can fit into nice clothes.and go shopaholic-ishh.anyway back to maths day.had to go thru 5 stations n made me sweat more.which stink-ed me."thanks"for tht.

anyway.nothing much to say except cant wait til class outing.and holidays.thought got sooo many activities.

do you know u make me sick?i mean honestly,u make me sick.u copy my actions,my image.try to be someone u're,trying to be me.thts so copycat.and thn tht fake innocence u surround urself with,attempting to be everyones friend n good girl.trust me,im not jealous but disgusted.and if i would say,its just my bad luck tht we crossed paths.u can say tht i might regret now.but no,not forever n beyond.u really disgust.and u're so bossy-th worst.u hav little control,yet u act like th big boss.please dont try with th sweet tone.u can act in front of every one like u r innocent but pls,u've lost my trust.i cn look like th bully but wat im saying is tru.i've seen ur real character.sorry but u lost me.

hunger take my pain,
nicole; )

hooray much?

2009-05-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

yay.exam over.sounds good,not.i passed all subjects except nt sure about lit.but good.pass with purple colours.lol.purple><.anyway,saturday go town.bought clothes as treat.yea.looked at loads of stores.searching fr my PERFECTschool bag yesterday.but couldnt.but prob fri go city find.YEA.but got confession.im sortra a half shopaholic.anything do to with shopping which i like,im total hyper.but thn i walk around whole mall n feet gets superb tired.so yes.bad fr me.but i love shopping.shopping.shopping.but th guilt comes with expenses.lucky i no credit card hahas;D.

today go esplanade fr maths trail.our facilitators are mr ian and ms jazreen?any way so cool luhs th mr ian funny n got blonde highlights.no offence thought he was pizza boy when saw him first time.lolws.go esplanade fr maths trail funny luhs.but at least cn skip whole day lessons n enjoy aircon;Dthn back home.going to pay fr class tee tomolo.and im nt done with dnt.jus going to write crap,hopefully not.tomoro ,maths day.ffffff.serious.why would i stay bac aftr sch to go run round sch fr dunno maths thing which prob same to todays.haiis.rather thy do during class time.

ahh.,wat todo\

s e e y u h : D
nicole;)

im just being me.so accept it.accept me.

2009-05-08T07:21:00.000-07:00

yep.my no.1 rule of all th times.im just being me.typical me.sarcastic me.happy me.rainbow-ishh me.very me.LOL.ohh yuhs.last week got soo many lovely things.and saw my lovely,dearest BFFLS.god.so happy;))).i bought my hp strap(so rainbow-ishh),some badges,presents,earstuds,elmo tee,MY damn cute bag.n my mummy say can get new school bag after exam.YEEAAA-HH.soo excited.thn aftr exam cn meet BFFLs AGAIN;))))

hahhaa.i dunno wat im sayin.i mus b goin crazy.tis week and th following hav exams.i havnt start on art.opps.anyway,bored.i need to chill aftr i poured all my geog info onto paper.so i very guai.not th "weird"guai but th good"guai".okayye.excuse my bad chinese.im nt chinese-educated.LOL.i today chi paper1,go write loadsa craps from shou ce.watev.hahahahhaha

jus feel lyk smiling.dont know why.i need some rainb ows.RAINBOWW.STARRS.but trust me,i dont like pink stuff too much.

anyway.im not giving up.i'll get*.

"im gone,im going"

dont give a sh*t.

2009-04-27T07:13:00.000-07:00

yep.i jus dont.its so f-ing stupid.i got how many tests a week cans?first got science,geo,hist plus an xtra load-de art exam.WTF.plus d&t start tis week.detest it.haiis.but will make th best of it.i will.im still stressed.i cant f-ing memorise th first 20 chemical watevs of periodic table.lyk hello.if u wanna make my life miserable,u might as well electrocute or something.though that sucks.

today aftr school go with cheryl,jingyi,vanessa tan,yu xuan and shi min to wm.also met other frens too.thn halfway,accompanied by elle.go wm,eat at food court.court food.i order noodles.n ice milo.thn th shi min keep make me laugh.i also dunno why.lol.funny.thn im th last to finish.lol.thn we guai kias go library study.but i go find book thn only attempted two questions of my maths homework.i think i goin to burst lerhs.hello,i not 24/7 hours robot.so tired.thn go home wit elle.came bac.did chinese,eat,tv,shower and com.man.27 april 2009 completed jus like that."simple" right??fcuk.

newwwae.i,dont,care.

id be lying if i sasid i didnt like you.i think of you.im not deeply obsessed but you are my first serious crush?perhaps.but u wait n see.hahahs.

yeah.i was soso foolish last time right?you think i didnt regret my decision?i fel like stupid shit.i would go back with you if i could change time.though i dont like you now,i still wish i didnt make that decision.im sorry i broke u.broke me.after talkin t o you today.i no i cant tok to u again.cus if i do.i will hate myself a hundred times more.and i cant suffer anymore.i was wrong.wrong.jus fcuking wrong,nicole.you blew it.like you always do.

*bye

blog-psycho

2009-04-19T03:26:00.000-07:00

ohh-kaye.cant give a shit how blog looks.dont know why blog so mean to me.my blog posts have flown to th other side.(sighs)soo hot ystrdae,today.sighs.tomolo got maths test but no bring back maths tb.im vry "hard-working",so i will study.LOL.

Today go jp(jurong point).i bought 2 op t-shirts,but they not right size.but it looked so COOL.LOL.I want go bac to jp.soo many stuff sehh.ate at thai express.hahahhahahr.LOL>

I think my blog went dead for awhile.then under maintenance.and now disfigured.a little.im so tired.last night watch the sith sense.at 11pm....WWOOOOHHH.lol.next week showing th seed of chucky.yeah.chucky.hahahahhahah.but now i so tired.i can almost bang my head on the table.on to my laptop.i want a new handphone lehss:(((.mine is so old.and i want a line.i want to go on holiday.

ok,stop complaining nicole.
hahahahhahah.

buh-byes.

2009-04-02T06:29:00.000-07:00

ok.im goin blue.hahhah.tomoro hillgrove's sports day!WOOOO.but " i DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK AS LONG AS ITS ABOUT mE,the..."watever.too bad i not those athelete star but im put in th first-aid area bcus of st.john's.W-O-W.i feel so honoured!NOT!u kidding me.haiis.doesnt matter.anyway no big deal rite.recaps.i actually got asked to do join cheerleading team for lakota.at first i was all no-nos.i mean,c'mon.who doesnt get freaked out when a senior comes after u to b a cheerleader.n puh-leese.i do not know how to do a split,somersault,cartwheel despite my years of ballet lessons.so im useless.no sense.and if you put me in a frilly skirt with pink pompoms you'd better wish you werent there.DUH.then i had second thoughts about joining th team.but tht was th same time i knew tht we all had to go fr th first-aid thing for th sport's day.so its not my fault cus i would still hav to go fr st.john's thing.SO?im not a COWARD!it is reasonable.NO more "buts" please.but still,i support LAKOTA!!dun ask me if my arm has a tattoo.i jus useed my leftover poster paint colours to paint my arm n nails.ritee....so any way....
cyas; )

2009-03-21T03:39:00.000-07:00

got frm drea;)

Name 20 people, at the end of the survey choose 5 people to do this survey.Don't read the questions yet , name 20 people first!
1. Andrea
2. Yan Ling
3. Jing Yi
4. Cheryl
5. Yu Xuan
6. Raina
7. Wang Yi
8. Anthea
9. Melody
10. Zoe
11. Ivy
12. Joelyn
13. Hui Xin
14. Rachel
15. Wan Nee
16. Jing Hui
17. Rena
18. Farzana
19. Jaslin
20. Vivian
The questions :
1. How did you meet 14 ?
first dae of school.in classroom 1e1:)
2. What will you do if you have not met number 1 ?
i think i would hav died.she is my BFFL;)
3. What if number 9 & 20 dated each other ?
thy do not knw each other,duh.
4. Will number 6 & 17 date each other ?
nope.reality check.thy dunno each other.
5. Describe number 3 .
vry chio.n WO AI her.
6. Do you think number 8 is attractive ?
duh.one of my junior.i thnk all girls r pretty i n a way.
7. Describe number 7 .
she kind,pretty and cute.
8. Do you know any family members of number 12 ?
no...nope.
9. What language does number 15 speaks?
english and chinese
10. Who is number 9 hanging out with all the time ?
her frens.uh-duh.
11. How old is number 16 this year ?
13 tis yr.duh.
12. How is number 2 favourite singer, actor , actress or band ?
i know she is "crazy" abt katy perry.n britney spears?
13. Have you dated number 4 ?
no.i not lesbian.but she vry chio.so if i guy,sure will.eck.
14. Had you ever date number 1 ?
no way.IM NOT LESBIAN.duh.ILOVEHER loads but as my bffl,twin,family n counsellor.haha.
15. Is number 19 single now ?
i hav no idea.
16. What is number 10 last name ?
i knw but jus in case dun wan me sae out;))))
17. Would you ever be in relationship with 11 ?
no-oh.but she my best fren frm peps;)
18. What's the school of number 3 ?
same as me;)
19. Where does number 6 stay ?
somewherre in singapore.lol.
20. What is your favourite thing about number 5?
she cute but quiet;P
Now choose 5 people to do this survey ;
1. Yan Ling
2. Jing Yi
3. Cheryl
4. Yu Xuan
5. Raina

2009-03-20T07:47:00.000-07:00

i am tired.and i sure got panda eyes.n i havnt finish at least half th damn homework i got.damndamndamn.seriously damn.holidays i jus keep watching tv.i am goin to cum up with crap excuses why some assignments cant b done.hello,i hav 1 eng,3 chinese,1 he and 1 sci.it wont b a surprise if i die of work overload.but its true.im lazy.superb lazy.i like to leave things at th last minute.i jus cant do th work.damn.and tis hols was inclusive of high-sugar intake fr me everydae.bcus im consumin to many sweet things.not to mention tues.popcorn n marshmallows.

wat makes me smile
-flashbacks
-sweets*marshmallows
-rainbows
-rain
-little pets.how lamm.e

and wat makes me angry
-th sight of anyone wearing whole pink
-ppl irritating me
-paris hilton?
-dead people

and now bac to emo-ing thru hw.

2009-03-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

long time no post.raining soo many days.i saw lightning.so shiok.ohmegawd.i still copying th history project by hand.sure wake up tomolo with black panda eyes.lol.

oh BTW.here is vids which i saw.superb cool.mus c.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=biw1ocVYYK4 (with fall out boy)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fePURKeEpVo (with lily allen)

so funny.hahahhahhaabh.okbyes.

2009-03-03T04:19:00.000-08:00

helo.yea.ct finally finish.lerhs.i hav to cut nails but lazy.hav to do hw,hav to chionng.omg.im tokin crap.saw 1e1 blog.nice,ok.haiis.im so fcukin tired sia.im puttin all th past behind and goin to smile.i need to smile.i wan to smile.i am goin to smile.nowadays i either listen to music or watch tv.i wan c my bffls again.crapcrapcrap.I wan brown shorts><.

bye=)

pics frm aus

2009-01-02T03:48:00.000-08:00

me up at mount morgan.sry,im squinting.

houses at mount morgan

th train(but it was closed BTW)

mount morgan.

lucia at lunch.having a treat of choc dessert.

lucia,my mum n aunt 'becca on couch.

lucia n my bro.awww...(tht was th nite she went kissing-crazee on my bro)

my pretty n adorable 4 yr old cousin lucia.

some water thng house

yellow house.i lyk yellow house.(lame me)

nite in rocky.

outside of my uncle eric's house.

at rocky airport.

our trolley of luggage.

departure place><

me at terminal 3.(slunted pic my bro took=p)

my bro listening to music on mrt to changi airport.

new year

2009-01-02T03:17:00.000-08:00

yep.bac frm aus.am vry vry vry vry vry vry sad.there is a hole in my heart.cus i miss my cousin n australial.ok.here is th recap...

24 dec 2008
-went to changi airport.waited to board plane.saw a cute man wink at me=)))
25 dec 2008
-reached brisbane.vomitted.eck.took plane to rocky.celebrated christmas.received lip balm set,purse,money n a wallet bag.
26 dec 2008
-boxing day.my cousin lucia n uncle arrived todae.she is sooo adorable.went out wif lucia,my uncle n aunt to cold rock.had ice-cream.tee hee!=))))had pizza takeaway fr dinner.
27 dec 2008
-went shoppin.went to the good guys,BIG W n more to shop.bought purple top n a few shorts.swam in the evening.cold...kept laughing cus lucia kept kissing my bro LOLOLOL.
28 dec 2008
-went kayaking after lunch.saw some wallabies n turkey(i thnk).got loadsa mozzie bites.had thai takeaway fr dinner.
29 dec 2008
-went to target,rivers n kmart fr shopping(hehe)bought white shorts,swimmers,another shorts n blue skirt.went to mount morgan.vry pweety ok..went to hotel fr dinner.
30 dec 2008
-went to get souveniers todaegot chocs.=Phad fish n chips fr dinner.more mozzie bites.
31 dec 2008
-counted as my last dae.vry vry sad.weather was super uber hot.i thnk was abt 49 degrees or smth liddat.went swimming.i hope i didnt get more tan.had bbq party at nite.i was super sad.
1 jan 2009
-went to my uncle's house to sae goodbye to everyone.was one of my saddest moments.lucia was saein lyk "i want to go with nicole" etc. etc.made me vry sad.whn went to airport.started crying.cant hold back tears.miss australia n lucia lotsss.

2 jan 2009
-went to sch wif bro todae.saw fuzzy,jing yi,cheryl,yu xuan n vanessa at sch.vry tired.made frens wif gal,christal n a malay girl.skirt is super noob.cant hav fringe below 'brows.im pissed.i hate moments lyk tis.every nw n thn i hav th same pain.even thou lucia mite cum to singapore nxt yr,she probably will lyk my other cusins better.hmph.hav a f***y feeling inside.

merry christmas!><

2008-12-22T18:57:00.000-08:00

elloelooelol.....hahahaaa.im sooooooo happpy.im goin toAUSTRALIA tomorow!!!yep,vry happy .but i have been vry pissed off yst.yes im stilll vry PISSED off.its nt any of u thou.i dun even knw their name.but if i ever see thm again.i will whack thm.cus thy r th cause of my delay.AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh.oks,ltr.newae.tomoro christmas eve.wed is christmas.i leavin abt late aftrnn tomoro.so FYI,do not call/sms me.dun blame me fr nt ans u lols.im bad.th weather so shuang lorhs.i dun feel lyk goin out 2dae but mite go to yl hse cus she wan me n drea go there;sry but im kinda lazy.hehe.i havent pack finish lehs....haiis.last nite slept at 2 am.cus i 5pm-6.30pm take nap.i thnk i hav insomnia.i cant sleep even if i wan to.irritating!!!!!!!!!lollllls.hmph////////////aiyah...i go lerhs.letsee if tomoro cn blog.newae.merry christmas,happy new year and good luck to everyone.hehehe.

fine.fine.

2008-12-18T02:23:00.000-08:00

ellos.woke up todae cus my mum told me results.im goin to---* *hahah.im nt goin to tell everyone hu doesnt knw.unless i feel lyk.so guess all u wan.but im nt tellin u if i dun wan.oh maN IM MEANhahahah.okieokiie.newae.gt th results.n there were smses wit th "which school you going" n blaBLAblas.im psyched.i went to sch wif mum n collected cert'.a bit weird cus i was in my clothes,nt uniform.bleh.newae,yay fr me.hahaa.my 'rents actually wanted me to appeal.but i was th nonos fr tht.thn.aftr tht went tuh wm.i oso went my mum workplace to help out.got a lil' CASH.which i will use in aus.ok i wun scream it out but i will.I AM GOIN TO AUSTRALIA!!!whoops.im crazeeeee.newae.yan couldnt watch twilight wit me so i am makin plans wit my cousin n her frens to watch.so dun ask me hehe.life is great.for nw.wat abt nxt yr?i dunno.i will miss my frens.but cant wait.oh god.6 more daes!!!aaaah.im excited.cant wait.cyas kays.

yestterdae.todae.dae after tomorrow.

2008-12-15T23:22:00.000-08:00

hamster in food paradise=Dlol,so lucky.

hamster standing up,smart-ey=P

hamster so stuborn.eat hamster,eat.hahahah.ok im jking.

see drea's cute hamster=)))so cute,wan to hug it;)

yl dunno doin wat...lol/

our "bread"pizza

my half-eaten pizza wif picked-out sausages.cus i dun lyk sausage

the pizza in oven,n our reflections.drea doin twist for th pic=)))

our masterpiece,hheehe/

ellos.yst went to drea hse.quite fun.we made pizza.oso gt plae cluedo(i want one><).emem....used com.heheh.and oso plae wit her hamster.cute.todae,letsee.im vry bored.vry vry bored.and my bro hoggin tv cus he gt ps2 game to plae.shit.newwwwae,lol.waitin fr sec skool results.ugh,went watchin twilight.whn??im currently grounded til' fridae(see first).so cant go out.newae,dunnno lahs.well c u.

2008-12-13T05:31:00.000-08:00

me when back home

ben & jerry's outside ice-cream van>so cute!<

fridge of ben & jerry's ice-cream tub

ben & jerry's tissue=)

cherry garcia ice-cream of ben & jerry's

the ben & jerry's counter

mighty chair and table of menus

upstairs of ben & jerry's and staircase

the fireplace and stage for performances

me posing for new haircut=P

little boy.

ellos.yea,i got new haircut=)lyk it?i dunno.its ok if ur thng is weird n ugly but wat matters is I lyk it=Pnewwae,cant wait for twilight!!omph.ysterdae plaed badminton.nw arm sore.2dae went to cousin's party.but whn reached there,got told tht he accidentally broke his arm.ouch.and its his bdae party.tis not a good dae=(newwae,after tht we went to ben & jerry's.hehe soo nice.th place oso too cute>< sec sch results comin out soon.a litttle worried.bye

shop.lol.

2008-12-10T23:07:00.001-08:00

my bro's christmas gift frm me=)

frm me to mum=))

frm me to mum=)))

frm me to uw=))

yep.ystrdae went to get christmas gift fr family.had a gr8 time.i bought th soap n lip butter fr my mum.guess hw much th lip butter cost?i thnk it was lyk$10.90.apart frm th discount=Pn gt th massager thng,th one wit th boxing glove fr my uw.n i gt th keyboard-shaped piggy bank fr my bro.but i oso gave him $15.n guess wat.these stuff were used up by my savings.okies,wat i meant was bdae money.i feel lyk gettin stuff fr meself.n p.s. i want th nxt book of twilight series=))))))))).i 2dae went out in mornin wif my mum,bro,cousin n aunt.cus my cousin n aunt came bac frm china,so went out.i so happy c cusin.he came bcus of dunno wat NS thng thn mon will go bac to china=P.newaes.dead bored.bbyes.

best weather eva

2008-12-07T23:40:00.000-08:00

my frenship necklace=D

rainy dae,vryvry cold dae.

hello ppl.2dae woke up noticed tht it was raining.didnt expect tis rainy dae to b th best damn rainy dae evar.it was cold so had tuh wear long sleeves.sweet.if i could really hav tis rainy dae evrydae i will happy lerhs.i cant wait til holidae.but thn there is bad thng.if i hav tuh appeal skool,trip hav to cancel=((((.i will superb unhappy.but lets b positive yea.cant wait til christmas. its th best time of th yr hehe.i havnt get 4 parents yet=Pnewwwae,up there th frenship necklace is i made.okies,nt really made.i used th ring tht me,drea n yl bought on my bdae.th ring is vry precious,yep.i put in in string n made necklace,yeaa.newae,b-bye

iloveyous,

Wonderland><

2008-12-07T03:01:00.000-08:00

hmph.drea cum bac tomorow ritey haha=)i nw listening to david cook-light on.quite nice=) i vry sian lorhs.u knw britney spears th songs quite nice lorhs=)newae...yst aftr netball go konikuya bkstore.i bought mag n new moon book lerhs!!yay!my mum oso giv me pale n hot pink nail polish n black eyeliner!lols so happy.im so happy.abt 17 daes til holidae=)

i cant wait to watch twilight=)hehe.i nxt week mae b get new haircut.yea.wonder hw we all look nxt yr=)hehhes.i so sian.who wan go out lehs.i vry sian at home.newaes i goin lerhs b-byes

QUIZ#2

2008-12-07T02:39:00.000-08:00

Did you qet pierced befor 16?
-em...yep.i gt pierce whn abt p1.
Are you qood at hidinq feelinqs?
-um nt really=P
Do you wake when you see ppl you know ?
- huh,um yes?i dunno.
Who did you last hav a sleepover with ?
-My cousins=)))
Are you afraid of fallinq in love ?
-um no=)
Can you braid hair?
-nt mine but others cans i thnk
Do you drink red bull or any other enerqy drink on requalar basis ??
-nope,but wan try=D
Do you hate beinq alone ??
depends.but hu lyk tuh b lonely gal?
Do you qet alonq with qirls ??
-yes,except fr strangers
Have you ever been in trouble with the cops ??
um nope=))-
Did you know that peelinq off the wrapper off a bottle means ur sexually frustrated ??
-em no but hu sae so luhs fcuk.
What is the connection between you & the last person who called you ?
-em,yan ling is my bffl!
Name sth you have in similiar with your siblinqs ??
-vry crazy,lyk to kick,hit etc each other(bully)hahahah lols
Name a sound that disturbs you ??
-construction noise,scratching,squeaky noise.
What did you do today ??
-go out wif family
What did you do last niqht ??
read magazine n book=D
Do you hav a cell phone ??
-Handphone?yarh durh
Are you emotional ??
-a lil,i dunno
Hav you ever hav the same dreams more ??
-um i dunno
Name a sonq dhat makes you happy.
-hot n cold-katy perry
Do you use chopsticks ??
-yea duh
If you were in an emerqency situation & you had to deliver a baby , wad would you do ??
-em,i dunno.i too young.><
What was th most recent thinq eu bouqht ??
-em,hairpins,soo cute
What is on you refriqerator door ??
-Magnets
Name sth dhat you had tuh do tmr ??
-watch tv=)
Name 8 people tht was so 'lucky' to do this quiz !
1.Andrea
2.Yan ling
3.Jing yi
4.Athirah
5.Munirah
6.Cheryl
7. Zoe
8.Yu xuan

QUIZ

2008-12-07T02:14:00.000-08:00

1 . Who is the person who tagged you ?
huh?raina?
2 . Relationship between you and her/him?
my jiex??i dunnop.
3 . Five impression of her/him ?
erm,...letsee...cute,bubbly,sweet,active,dog-lover.
4 . If she/he becomes your enemy , will you ?
umm nope.unless vryvryvryvry gud reason=P
5 . What would you like to say to the person you like very much ?
thnks fr taggin?
6 . Characteristic I like about myself ?
weird?crazy?
7 . Characteristic i hate about myself?
umum...vry lazy?
8 .For the person you hate you say?
fcuk u.
9 . What do people feel about you?
i dunno.um...weird?
10 . Your crush ?
no one yet.
11 . Pass this to 10 peoples
1.Andrea
2.Yan Ling
3.Athirah
4.Munirah
5. Zoe
6.Niki
7. Ameira
8. Min ying
9.Myet
10.Shrabonti
12 . If 5 & 7 were tgt ?
um....i dunno.wat u mean?
13 . What does 5 like ?
her gans?i thnk so =P
14 . What colour does number 9 like ?
light purple
15.Say something about number 8 ?
vry pretty n funny=))
16. Who is number 2 ?
MY BFFL!=P))
17 . Talk about number 3 ?
my mummy,I LOVE U=)
18 . Who's number 10's best friend ?
um...i dunno...hehe=P
19 . Who is the sexiest among the 10 people ?
all vry chio kays.
20 . What colour does 4 like ?
um munirah....eh...lemme guess,blue?rite?
21.Is 4 single?
yea,shld be rite....eeks...=P
22. Your relationship with number 1 ?
MY BFFL!=)
23. Are 5 & 6 bestfriends ?
yes?no?sry i dunno.i thnk yes?um i dunno lols
24 . 9's surname?
Tho??shld b hehe
25 . 7's nickname ?
ameira??sry i dunnop.
26 . Say something to 8 .
min ying,frens4eva,i luv u!
27 . Say something to help 9
hi!lolls
28 . Who does number 1 admire?
um,admire...erhs...her sis??hehe.
29. Where does number 1 lives?
in singapore=)
30 . Does 10 of them know who you like ?
huh?i dun lyk ne1.
31 . Say something to 6 when you see him .
erm,its her.um,i love you,jie!mei ai nii.
32 . 10's spouse ?
mickey?i thnk so=D

BORING!

2008-12-04T23:18:00.001-08:00

yes im vry bored,vrryvry bored.so sad lehs.drea go holidaes ahaahas.newae.im jus blogging.i knw wat annoys me most.it is whn ppl sit on sofa,i hate whn thy put their legs up.i always ltr ask my bro put down.lols.hmph.cant wait til twilight.hahaa.i cant wait til 24 dec.i cant wait fr skool results.=)

ok bies.;)

quiz.

2008-12-04T22:33:00.000-08:00

1. What is your full name ?
nicole choy wei ling
2. Do you like your first name ?
nicole?hmm...yes,i luv it.bcus in skool nt many ppl hav,hahah.
3. How long have you liked the person you currently like ?
huh.i currently dun lyk ne1.
4. Have you kissed anyone in the last 48hours ?
nope.
5.Did you cry today ?
apparently no.
6. What are you doing this morning at 8am ?
sleeping<33
7. What are you doing an hour ago ?
tagging blogs
8. What are you currently doing ?
doin tis quiz lorhs.
9. Who last texted you a msg ?
drea!!<333333
10. Have you told anybody that you love them today ?
yes,by tags.
11. Do you miss anyone now ?
duh...alot=()
12. Any plans for tomorrow ?
yes,netball in morning.
13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried ?
tv?omph....soo embarassed,but so sad hahaas.
14. Is there anyone you want to be with now ?
drea??hahaa
15. Have you kissed anyone who's name start with C ?
hmm...nope
16. Name someone who make you smile today.
i couldnt smile todae.lols.
17. Name a friend whose name starts with Z.
zoe jiejie!!<33333
18. Which of your friend stays closest to you ?
anthea?
19. Do you prefer to call or to text ?
call,definiteli/
20. Was yesterday better than today ?
um...maeb:
21. Can you live a day without a tv and your phone ?
NOOOO.i depend on tv n hp always.
22. Are you mad about anything now ?
yes,my bro wont chat wif my father usin msn.he gt com wan use mine.ke siao larhs,ben dan.
23. Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it ?
um,if u r serious thn yes.if nt,hell no.
24. Last person you visited in a hospital ?
my grandmother.
25. When is your last and second last hug ?
um,long tym ago.wit all my besties.
26. What does the last text msg in your inbox says ?
why shld i ans?/
27. How do you feel about your life now ?
um...vry bored,waiting to go 4 holidae.
28. Do you hate anyone now ?
cn sae dislike??i dislike my bro.everytym nehw scold me,hit me.walao lehs.always tok wit girl make me puke lahs,
29. Last person you called ?
yan ling?
30. Who usually send you the most texts in a month ?
no one.
31. Is your room messy now ?
quite=P
32. Your shortest relationship ?
las yr??
33. Who do you look like ?
i look lyk myself.nt.
34. Tagged 10 people to do this survey.
1.Andrea 2. Yan ling 3. Athirah mummy 4. Zoe jiejie5. Cheryl6. Liying7. munirah 8. Minying9. myet jiex10. Raina .

hello agains!

2008-12-01T06:44:00.000-08:00

new slippers,so cute n comfy,hahaah.

my new watch!yes!!lol

okies,jkjk.woke up todae wit headache,nt ideal rite??n due to my dry throat or watev,my dae gt a hell lot worse.due to my headache,my resolution was to kip sittin down or liein down.typical me.Tv was my companion fr e dae,hw nice.okies,i will rewind bac to ystrdae.woke up,went out fr brek-lunch thn went to plaza singapura.yipee!lol.lookie up there.i bought my new watch,its blu hahah.n my black slippers frm ripples.nice=))i oso gt pj shortts=))rite.wwent bac was superb tired,sry im nt taggin ne1 2dae,another dae cans??i cant wait til watch twilight,i crazee.hahaaa.letssee,abt 23daes til i go aus n abt 24 daes til christmas day.welll...goin to go.

ILOVEUALL!!ghahas.

2008-12-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

1. What kind of boyfriend or girlfriend do you like?
boyfren,hmm...tall,handsome,smart but sociable,caring n faithful.girlfren?im nt lesbian haha,but in bestie way,someone hu is trustful...
2. How did you celebrate your 1st month?
um...nth??
3. Do you feel safe with your boyfriend or girlfriend?
um...boyfren...i dunno,..
4. When you see your stead injured or sick, would you be there even if you're busy?
um...maeb nt but secretly would wish to??i dun hav ne newae.
5. When it's your 12th month & your stead is having another r/s, what would you do?
im nt stupid,dump tht jerk,duh!!
6. What if you know your ex is still loving you while he is single and while you're attached?
well,i cant help tht.
7. Are you single, having a r/s or having a crush on someone?
im single but hav crushes on celebrities.
8. List out 3 love or sad songs
1)together-avril lavigne;2)in another life-the veronicas;3)love song-sara barellies
9. What would you do if you and your stead quarrel?
um,if my fault,i apologise.his fault...wait fr him to say sry.
10. Do you wish to know if someone has a crush on you?
definitely?
11. What if you're single & someone has a crush on you?
um...he has to ask,nt me...=P
12. How many times had your heart been broken by somebody?
um letsee,lyk 3 or 4 times.fr real.
13. If you & your stead quarrel, who'd be the one apologizing?
depends.but hu lyks to admit fault/?
14. What would you do if your stead wants a break up?
break lorhs.cant force him.
15. Did any of your stead give you a present that you liked the most?
Nu-oh.so sad.i dint even receive frm ne boys apart frm bro n relatives.=(
16. When did you last cry for someone whom you love?
this month??
17. How many times did you break your promise to your stead?
i dunno..
18. Do you wish that your relationship will last long?
wat relationship??i dun hav.urgh...
19. Did your stead kiss you in public?Nuh way!
Pass this to your friends to know how their relationship is going on.Send them by msn, or ask them to copy & paste.Post it in their blog.
Remember to put down 11 names, so that your r/s will last long.1. Yanling BFFL2.Andrea BFFl3. Jingyi BFFL4. Athiirah mummy5. Raina Jiejie6.Munirah7.Shrabonti8.Ameira9.Cheryl10.Ivy 11.Zoe jiejie

2008-11-27T20:59:00.000-08:00

yyay!katy perry cd.hahaa.

hair clips,iloveit!

rubberbands,so pweety.

hair grips?hair clips?so colourful.lol.

CHOCOLATE!!

okies.REWIND.ystrdae.um,drea came my hse.i oso gt buy my katy perry cd lerhs.n those hairbands n hair clips.still hav to get more...newae,drea came.met her at mrt.okies,went my hse.first thng is com.haha.she help wif chnging blogskin.a bit complicating.but accomplished.thn we go utube watch th nigahiga videos.i lyk th hw to b a nerd best!!lols,all soo funny.ur probably watch liaos ritey?/?newae,thn drea went home.em...thn nite tym i watch tv till abt 1am,thn i secretly read mag until2am.wah,eyes so tired liao.cn die,haha.2dae woke up 9.30 liddat.tht means abt 7 n a 1/2h.....hmph,wat to do 2dae lehs/??i cn onli either watch tv or read.bleh.hmm i cant wait to watch twilight lorhs!!i read th book liao,soo nice.i most lykli watchin wit yl cus drea go wit her fren.but if yl cnt thn i go wit my cusin n her fren.hmph,i waiting to buy th other bk.

hmph,sumone chat wit me=)

hello,long time no see...

2008-11-25T07:11:00.000-08:00

hellos,sry fr abandoning my dearest blog fr a long time.but couldnt help but be interested in ******* game.i censor cus its to lame fr u to knw kays?lol.u c th pic up ther?thts my voodoo doll.we rescued it frm loneliness n nw its in safe hands.its a bit lyk video recorder n guardian angel,watching my every move n making sure of wat im doin,im sry fr leavin it alone,kays?

no one takes voodoo doll kays?MINE!sry fr my selfishness,thts th way i m.lol.

my results fr psle,.u wan knw?its 213.im happy n disappointed,satisfied to knw?truth is,i expected to get lower,probably my family.yea im kinda feelin weird.im nt gonna sae it but i will.

did ur look down on me?jus cus of my laziness u thght i was tht bad.fine.

here is my special msg,i had made my decision n i find it ridiculous u r holding it all bac.n yes, i admit wateva happens,happens.n u wan me sae it,fine,if i bcum bad or an ***hole,u cn sae i hav myself to blame,satisfied?i knw im restricted frm my vulgarities,but we all hav to use it somehw.

cant wait till holidae.christmas.

here is wat i gotta sae.guys.or gals.u cn thnk im weird or a freak,but it doesnt matter.i m rather b**chy sumtyms but can i help it?n yes,im a total slacker.i am lazy n a daydreamer fr everythng.i hav a freakin rude attitude esp.uw.im sry,its jus th way i express my feelings n i cant help it.i hav a big mouth n m freakinly quite uncontrolable(did i spell it rite?)if u insult or offend me in less thn a few mins in a big way,u r sure to b quite my enemy n mite even get ur free goodie(kick is th best grab).my sweet talks n words r usually my best features.whn i sae good thngs to u,thy r really tru,cus my words dun lie.n if u havnt noticed,i hav two splitting images.if i knw u well enuff,u r sure to b deaf frm hearin my annoyin rubbish.but if u r a stranger or sum1 im afraid to offend liddat,i will b so quiet n shy,u mite b th one doin th tokin.so c,i knw i sound mean,but do u really knw wat person i m?do u?maeb yes,maeb no.n if u thnk u made th wrong choice to bfren me,thn im sry fr ruining part of ur life.i finally had th guts to sae all this kays.

n honestly,dun ask which skool i wan to go.cus honestly,i dun wan to b excited or disappointed kays?tht is tru.n im sry but i hav choices n i knw wats best.

sry athirah mummy,2dae cant do quiz.2mr,kays?but if i dun ever do it cus i always forget,u cn gimme a big scolding n nudge me.lols.

iloveuall,byes

2008-11-18T02:16:00.001-08:00

HELLO

2008-11-16T22:14:00.000-08:00

list 11 people you love;

1.yan ling bffl

2.andrea bffl

3.athirah mummy

4.zoe jie

5.jing yi

6.cheryl

7.raina jiex

8.niki jie

9.yu xuan mummy

10.shrabonti

11.wang yi

1. Are 1 and 5 best friends?

-yeas!thy are darlings,ritey??

2. Among 1 and 2, who do you like more?

-hmph,both i love equal de same love=))

3. Does 6 love to eat alot?

-i dunno?cheryl,u lyk eat lots??lols

4. What is 7's favourite colour?

-pink,blue,i dunnop?

5. 4 impressions about 1?

-i dunno,nt sure...

6. 11 is cute?

-YESH!all my frens r prettaye,except bois=P

7. is 9 single or attached?

-nope,at least tht is wat i thnk,rite?

8. How do you think about 4?

-very CHIOBU!!wo ai jiejie!

9. Does 10 have any pets?

-im nt sure,dun thnk so=))

10. Can you accept the fact when 2 is gone?

-NOOO!i luv her too much!!

Tag 5 people to do this question;

1.yan ling

2.andrea

3.jing yi

4.zoe jiejie

5.raina jiex

hahsa....watta do lehws??i miss my frens.classmates,gans,teachers....

haiish....so sad=(((jing,why mus go holidae lehs??newae,bb,ppl

I MISS yOU!!

2008-11-14T23:03:00.000-08:00

ok,sry fr nt posting recentli...i vry"late".....tis mite b long post but hu cares....i dun expect ne1 to read but its ok......first of all,i miss everyone!!!my bffls,frens,gans,classmates,teachers,even th principal??cn?im ke siao.i miss everyone,im too slow n lazy,thts why i nvr get to sae watever i wan too sae,sry to some ppl,i no mood tag everyone except some.

to drea,my bffl,my loved one n someone im selfish to let ne1 else hav...lols.we onli knew each othr frm lyk las yr,thn we became bffls.amazing rite??yea?but i still love you my dear fren,bffl,i miss you n will rmbr u.sry fr th silly letter i wrote tht dae.throw it away if u wan.no matter wat,ILOVEYOU!

to yan ling,my bffl,again,u r my bffl n I LOVE YOU!yea!tht is wat i sae.even thru evrytthng,u r still here fr me,shared joy,tears blood wit me.tht is tru frens.i will always luv u,dear fren,no matter wat,rmbr tht.

to jing yi,my beloved fren,oso considered dear frend,WO AI NII!hw many times i sae tht??many times..wo ai ni....dun 4get me kays??i will make th scrapbk,soon,sry im such a bad fren,no do in tym.i make scrapbk,especially fr you.u so chio,dun thnk u ugly or wat kays??wo ai ni,i mite nt b same place as you but i oso a guardian angel fr every one,ther fr u.

to zoe chiobu jiejie,even tho we dun tok much sometimes,I LOVE U!!wo ai nii,ni shi wo jiejie n wo ai ni,no mAtter wat happens,meimei will support u kays??

to athirah mummy,i love you,lots!!ur msg to me vry touching,if i could sae alot foreva,i would sae over a million thngs,dun 4get me,ur daughther kays??

to niki jie,th othr dae saw u cry,oso wan make me cry u knw??meimei ai ni!last long wif superman kays??

to yuxuan mummy,wo ai ni!u vry cute,mus go good sec skool but dun 4get me kays??wo ai nii

to raina jiex,wo ai ni,thnks fr th card, i wun 4get u kays?meix ai jiex!

to shra,thnks fr th letter n th fugly pic of me,lols!wo ai ni,iloveyou!!lols,rmbr me kays???

class of form 6f,n chinese class 6e,wo ai ni men,as in fren-class mate way can??all de laughter joy will b rmbrd!!dun 4get me kays???

to ?,i nvr saed wat i shld hav saed...yea,i was angry at u but too late to b angry...cn rmbr me??doesnt matter...u cn rmbr th othr wan,butnt me,even i hurt,u wun c it...

to ??,u nvr notice me??no,i nt askin fr ur aattention...maeb...u nvr sae to me happy bdae?did u?no gift,i dun care.happy belated bdae??i doubt so.it shows hw shit i m to you.yes,why didnt i knw tht/?im sorry.i was so foolish thn.i didnt thnk,u mus still hate me.4get it,u wun rmbr me.

th end,i love ur!!